the dark side of softball teams

why are people group texting at 6am?... ok, so perhaps the title was a bit misleading, especially after daylight savings time, but hearing my phone blow up with multiple replies to group texts before 7am on a saturday morning is not good for the sleep patterns i need... saturday is the only day i can usually sleep in, or at least that was the case while i was working... i suppose the whole dark side point is moot at the moment, though i am sleeping very poorly as i process the traumas of the week and month and go through multiple overlaping grieving processes that make for disturbingly rough emotional seas... sigh... and blah blah blah... and another text message and then, after another minute followed quickly by an other minute, another... i think the mind is ready to slip into sleep mode now... almost 8am, not bad...

waking again with words pouring out, three more entries, maybe four... and the fact that i remembered a friend's birthday is a sign that i am not as foggy groggy boggy as i've been most of this week... i slept broken sleep, but stayed in bed for five hours and that is longer than any other time this week so this may be a very good thing, that i am a little clearer, memory wakes slightly, i am thinking of others as much if not more than myself, and i may be taking a break from the pity party instead of diving into the abyss head long because i am sitting here alone on the first weekend after... yeah, we can take this as a good sign... probably will... though i know the process continues...

so the dark side of softball teams is group texts, no wonder why i love the game so much... early morning softball tomorrow, double header against two of the best teams, hope the team shows up this week...

sign and narf :}