sleep is good

oh yeah (with a deep and resounding reverberating smile ya know?)... the body feels uber super wonderful (though the arm aches a bit, healing continues) after all that walking and bouncing and fun yesterday and they is partly cuz i ate healthier yesterday and partly cuz of all the exercise yesterday, but mostly cuz i slept... sleep is good for the body... soooo good...

and the head is smiling too cuz with so much sleep, there is a happy grogginess now... the deep-sleep-drugs are still alive and kicking... i will wake in a bit and maybe then i will catch up on thoughts that transcended through the brain while i slept (perhaps even dreams, aye?)...

hope today is sparkly :)

12/12/12/12/12/12

something to do with time and space, i reckon... reckoning, that's what the mayan's said, or maybe that was the more modern interpretation... in any event (and who knows what events might be any), this entry was written in bits and pieces over the course of time starting last year or before and is all set to be posted at 12 minutes and 12 seconds after 12 on the 12th day of the 12th month of the 12th year in this millennium, for whatever it's worth to numerologists or anyone else...

maybe i will provide some actual daily life before posting, aye?...

coulda been you

from the land of couldabeen :)

missing links

as i drop them into entries
as the days slide passed us now
i wonder how many will never find your eyes
(not to mention your heart and mind)

and rather than believe
they have been a waste of time, somehow,
i shall believe they will be shared someday
(that some day we will find the time for rhyme)

and so i leave them here to be found
cuz that is what makes my world go round

(and then i thought out loud) . . . hmmmm, there is a rhyming pattern in there, however complex or meandering, that inspires my smile as much as the message within the words that form the rhyming pattern if you know what i mean... almost a month and almost as many entries (and links to other entries) as days gone by and what might have been is wistful and whatever will be will be as it's always been (meta-time-ically speaking)...

(and then i shared the day) . . . another long work day without taking a break cuz it was almost time for normal people to go home when i looked at the clock and home just in time to make a sandwich and catch the ncaa women's tournament with jackson and nod off in the chair and wake to find myself here with an entry box waiting for words... so here are the words and now, where is bed? :)

KIT! :)

and so it goes and yes i said it right there at the top in the title it coulda been you this entry was too but instead, it was to someone else who wasn't here either so in the end it was to me and so it goes and so it goes and i am... the only one who knows :)

if you ask why i am smiling, you most likely do not know me well enough to understand my answer and so it may sound absurd, but if you do not understand my silence, you will not understand..... my words . . . my words . . . my words :)

yeah, really

omigosh... not the sudden blurted out omigosh as one syllable, but the oh-my-gosh of wonderfully wonder-fulled wondrous memory re-incarnating feeling so purely sweetly beautiful that there are no words... of course music bring me here again... tonight, the music of jay & the americans and many other related songs found on youtube... righteous brothers, moody blues, association, elvis, four seasons, lettermen, and so many others... so i've got hundreds of vids to download queued up when i finally stop listening as the library grows... oh yeah, really, all i can do is smile :)

music (and lyrics) makes thereal the best place to be :)

daily chores

not that i enjoy them, but i wish there was time for them... most days no chores get done at all, which lets them pile up and pile up and (multiply by fifty and then some) and then i am exhausted on saturday and only want to lay around and rest (and the body needs it) and then sunday i play softball from morning till dark (sometimes less depending on the game times) and then the aily work week starts again so...

two loads of wash are happening (though one is waiting for the dryer, so we're a long way from completing two loads) and about 10% of the boxes were unpacked (though that does not mean the contents are all put away where they will be when i decide where they will be... just too tired to think today) and i can walk into the closet and i cleaned the week's trash and showered long and hot and so, a minor dent in the unpacking and a substantial dent in the laundry and a clean place to live happened today...

in about an hour i am heading to jackson's to go to dinner at her favorite pizza restaurant to celebrate our birthdays (which are six days apart), then we'll decide if we are going to the game night, then jackson and happiness will spend the night so happiness (the friendliest dog alive) can start getting used to the place...

yes, i know, a fascinating life... and you wondered why you rush home to read about it every night, aye? :)

enjoy yours too :)

frustrating day, still laughing

and euphoric and giddy and by all normal standards, quite bipolarly insane (it's a new diagnostic they missed in the new DMSV, but don't tell anybody cuz they'll look at you all funny-like)...

ATT really seriously majorly amazingly SUCKED today... if i wrote ATT SUCKS a billion times, it would just describe part of the day... i spent from 10am until 7pm trying to find out what the new POP3 and SMTP server addresses were and at least thirty different ATT CSRs left me hanging or hung up (of course it could have been dropped calls after being on hold for up to 55 minutes at a clip)... the fact is, ATT has some amazingly bad customer service people... and their convergesys outsourcing does not help their effacacy... fimbidimblestipts!...

so a bit after 7pm i rush out to work to take care of the admission who came in last night and collected my $100 for just over an hour and stopped at giovanni's and publix on the way home to eat lasagna and stuffed shells and chocolate milk and chocolate pie for dinner and bliss is as easy as that... la dee da dee diddly doo :)

meanwhile, i've got this red spotty itchy rash on my left forearm, a dry scaly rash on my left middle finger, a dry scaly rash on my scalp, an infected wisdom tooth, and a serious case of sniffles... is dr. house in the house?... this body is slowly falling apart and i'm laughing like the joker from batman... can't nothing get me down anymore?...

who knows, but nothing in recent years... it's like i've got a teflon psyche and rubber heart... or silicon... mercury?... it's all metaphorical, ya know...

hope you enjoyed your day even more :)

i was supposed to sleep tonight

cuz i have softball practice in four hours and it is close to freezing outside, which means muscles won't want to stretch much and fatigue just makes injury all the more possible... dummy...

me and my nocturnal lover's hours :)

so little me time

and what's the point of me time, one might ask (me, for instance)... especially from the perspective or belief that the primary point of this physical life is sharing... but then, share what?... share everything... and then, share with whom?... with anyone who truly cares... and what do i have to offer in this sharing of everything with anyone who truly cares?... me!...

so instead of going out to a game night with some great friends and having fun, i decided to stay home and take care of me (which of course always includes writing if i am doing it right for me)... who knows, a dozen new blogs may start and while babbling ridiculously, i shall clean and play with myself...

take care of you :)

really?

well, the intention was to sleep until i woke naturally, but the phone rang a half dozen times already this morning and hile i rolled over and ignored most (after glancing at the phone for the number), the last one was work and as i am on-call this weekend, and i almost did not have to go in, but i will go in later as the admissions to the children's psychiatric hospitals do not take a break for xmas this year... the nurse was going to do the assessment for me, but a few issues popped up and she probably won't have time, but it was sweet of her to offer and give it a try...

so awake and will head to work later, but for now, continued vegging is all that i intend to do... dear friends will be watching it's a wonderful life and then wandering the city of celebration, florida to see the festivities and lights and stuff (they have snow) and then playing games and having fun and i am contemplating heading down there (at least forty minutes away), but for the moment, no intentions beyond vegging...

it is a wonderful life :)

would have been 1000

yes, if i wasn't secretly (shhhh, don't tell anybody, nyuk and all) slipping an entry or few in the past as i find the writing i've been doing and not uploading (like at the moment, cuz the game died again, i am finding emails/letters i've written to friends old and new and i'm popping the writing in those into entries where they would have been in the time line of life if the words did not find their way into the mail and you'll just gave to ponder deeply all you've missed by not keeping in touch, alas and all, i know, ya know?), this would have been the 1000th entry here in ethereal... wow, aye?... especially cuz it happened in less than half the time... yup, ethereal zoomed past RealTime™ and is fast chasing down all the others...

hope you've been enjoying yourself and life as much as i have, even though i've missed you, even though you probably never knew... the words have been pouring out all along, just as i promised all those year ago... and here they'll be, right here waiting, just as if you've been here sharing all along...

isn't it romantic? :)

g'morning sunshine

waking by friend's phone call instead of alarm is much better, at least today... i suppose it depends on the friend and what the friend want, obviously, cuz i am really hoping not to get too many more wake up i need money phone calls as this year has started with a plethora of them... enough to give the what about me? voice serious credibility, which is rare if you know me on the inside...

but this morning was a yay phone cal wake-up cuz the person is a ray of sunshine and we're going to meet later for a light dinner (healthy influences, maybe whole foods) and then check to see if i won a blingillion dollars ($164,000) cuz the grand prize drawing for a radio station wing place grand opening contest (wjjr and buffalo wild wings) is tonight and a girl from the radio station called to tell me i am a finalist... yeah, ha, probably with a thousand others, at least... but maybe i'll get a t-shirt...

and i know i've got this song in my head these days and it's still just moving in to my psyche, but it is so very cool when there is an actual magazine article about real world artist friend (scroll down to page 37) to share too (if you’ve been following along for a while, i took her to jc superstar over the summer) and you would love her and her work, so keep your eyes out for her and her work as the years pass and remember, you heard it here, even if it wasn’t first…

and then we (different friend, the one challenging me, though from afar, to run and be healthier) have a party to go to (so it's not a date, cuz i have no ambition to date and never really did after maybe once in high school... back to the long list of reasons i am alone?... well, the one i want to be with is different like me in this area as well, so there)... we'll meet for dinner and then check out the contest and then head to the party... i'm not sure who will be there (at the party), but i'll probably know some people as i usually do when going to private parties that are branching off from meetups these days and i am pretty sure this is one of those...

so i probably ought to nap a bit (clean and do laundry?... yes, that would be sensible as this place is way too cluttered and unkempt these days, but i do have softball from 9-11am with the serious team and then from 1-7pm with a couple of other teams tomorrow and then work and softball monday and i did stay up until dawn last night, so a nap would be the wisest thing to do... the alarm was originally set for 1:10pm, after all)... not moving in does make for more on-going clutter... six more months and i can move, three more months before i need to decide where... anyway, today and this weekend should be much fun...

are you gonna make today fun too?... i hope so :)

4am pizza

hey, it's either pizza or chocolate or karen carpenter singing need to be in love, so tonight it's pizza... of course this is self-defeating (or is it merely childish rebellion) as i am going to dinner (i think) and a party with a a person of good healthy influence tomorrow night... but the mountain dew with a squirt of pineapple is just so good (oh, the oral people understand, dontcha, even if you don't want to admit it)...

after all, no matter how much i am loving this month's favorite song, a sensuous child does not live by music alone... after all, i don't have a ping pong table or anyone to ping or pong even if i had a table... so pass the pizza and sing me a song piano man... or cute new singer.. and enjoy the night for all the wonders and excitements and sensual pleasures there can be...

how you doin? :)

staying home

yeah, so far i haven't decided to go out anywhere, even though i would probably enjoy the concert... i just so rarely spend a day relaxing at home, i feel kind of selfishly decadent... the eggplant parm and chocolates might have helped too... and laundry is getting done... and much writing, with a little help from my friends too... yes, introductory letters have begun happening again... who's rolling eyes?... what?... you haven't read my intros from long ago when darkness filled my universe?... oh, well, you might learn something quite depressing i suppose, though i really don't remember what i wrote... i trust it was about me though, being introductory letters and such... and more seriously, i trust that is is still accurate, mostly, if not completely...

i change all the time, but the core, it's been pretty stable and constant since i first experienced an awareness of my own consciousness... what?... you aren't aware of my own consciousness?... how about yours? :)

i hope your day is fun :)

swirling synapses

morning, good?... hope it is for you,m it will be for me as soon as i wake up and start the day cuz excitement about the softball playoffs tonight has been buzzing around and keeping me semi-awake... all night long, ya ya...

i must explore bmop dot exe more because it is in the att folder and is constantly demanding access to the eb in what my virus program calls a suspicious manner and yet, it appears to be part of the att package that checks optimization of proxy stuff so i am allowing it to continue cuz the only reason i am aware of it is i set the virus program to a higher level of warnings...

new laptop soon... make today wonderful... see ya when you get here :)

sleep bouncing

now while the vast majority of you might consider the title to have something to do with somnambulatory fantasies (somnambulation?... oh my!), i slept wonderfully even with waking to re-cover myself cuz the windows were open and a new brrrrrr-eeze blew through the place last night... waking early for the gym just wasn't in the cards cuz curling up and staying warm was just too much fun...

and now, it's time to head downtown to the samh diwg meeting (a bunch of old geeks and nerds gathering to discuss numbers and such) and then, maybe... clean the place?... it is getting a bit ragged what with clothes kind dripping from boxes everywhere as the unpacking continues and i hunt for winter clothes... hey, a few 40 degree mornings are cold enough (even if i nyuk)...

i hope you are feeling exhilarated and cheery and make today wonderful in your world :)

tweedle dee

home again with no plan except rest (so maybe a load or laundry or two if i don't pass out first?)... gym?... we shall see... soup for dinner and ponderings... ponderings deeply... to meat or not to meat... see, there's some people in this world i might let influence me from time to time... they have to have the right mix of waves or vibs or whatever, it's really not easily explained, if explaining is even possible... anyway, one of these potential influences just went vegan this week and here i am entering what seems to be a rather nonchalant omnivore phase with cow, pig, and chicken in the freezer... so tonight i eat soup to nuts to crackers, all veggie...

pondering... and drifting... and laughing at myself and life and love and everything, including everything that once mattered so much more than everything else combined to me... wondering just how set in my ways i have become... and what are my ways, anyway... ah, the undefined is the unwanted, the uninvited, the easily overlooked and pushed out the door if one dares to enter the world of the defined...

so how was your day? :)

more days off please

this was a wonderful day off... except for unnecessary the morning excursion downtown, much rest and relaxation and good company and decent food and some exercise made it the first balanced day off in a while... sure, the laundry waits and the place needs cleaning and so on and blah blah dee blah blah blah, but... the body feels good and the mind feels even better and the ethereal energies are aglow (really, aglow... you should see them :)

since the last entry, i walked to gators (sports bar) and met seven meetup people and precious and we ate wings and chatted and then i walked home... the walk was wonderful for the body... the chat was great for the mind... life is good today :)

i hope life was good for you today too :)

correction

i do have a day of rest... unfortunately, i did wake at 6am, then again at 7am, and so i did not get the straight through sleep that the body needed most of all, but i may nap more as the day moves along because i was wrong about florida and mlk, they do close the state for the holiday, so i drove downtown and home for nothing... yeah, i had the date wrong... i'll drive back down on wednesday for the meeting... and today, rest... the muscles are screaming for it, so good deal for me...

hopefully this will be the worst of my oops for the week...

how boring life would be without these little stumbles... well, just keep reading(or read back) and you'll see how boring life could be even with stumbles and foibles and so on... the mundane details, after all, are only interesting to me and the one or few people who want to know (partner, yeah, that's what all this is for, so my partner can catch up and know every little thing... and we why i don't have a partner today?...

ah, good old self-mockery, a fine way to re-start the morning... i hope you find the way that works for you and have an even better day :)

no day of rest

which only goes to prove i am not god, contrary to what some may think (well, maybe not only, but i'll just pretend today is my day off and day of rest and all as i relax at the diwg meeting downtown)... florida does not consider mlk day a holiday for the state, which is wrong as i was going to take today off, but i will go find out what changes the government planners have for data collecting for 2009 instead...

nice and woozy this morning as the body recovers and rebuilds and the mind requests more shut-down time... it is very much like being drunk and even more like being stoned on some strong substance, qualudes or codeine or morphine, perhaps, as everything slows and feels kind of numb... demerol, maybe... too bad nobody's around to share it (i never was much for drinking alone cuz sharing altered consciousnesses is much more fun)... i'll enjoy it anyway cuz i do...

however you feel inside, make your day wonderful too :)

morning is cold

now for some people living where 0 degrees celsius is a heat wave and 0 degrees fahrenheit is an ordinary morning (or high for the day, even) and minus forty five is not impossible, this forty degree morning (what’s that, like 4 celsius?) is a heat wave, but for someone living in florida a long time, it’s frostbite weather, or at least it feels that cold… and i’ve got the windows open and am about to hop into the shower and then out to play (with much sitting around waiting) in a softball tournament (7am registration, 9am first game, noon second game - by then it’s supposed to be 60 degrees - then tournament play starts at 3pm and who knows when the last game might be and if we win a game in the tournament, more tomorrow, same batty time)… at least i got four hours sleep… and the weather is clear with 0 percent chance of rain, yay...

ok then, time to get wet and moving… i hope your day is as much fun as mine is gonna be… make it so :)