maybe a nap

sitting around in the heat, whether at the beach or at home, is a sure way to slide into wanting a nap... after peanut butter and jelly for lunch, the urge to nap is even stranger... so it is time to put the computer aside and turn on the tv and take a nap with the ncis team...

happiness has a big head start on that nap...

hardly any sleep

and yet, the four hours is a full cycle and i am awake, sort of, even though the body would like to sleep another four, or eight, and the brain would like snother cycle or few, there's a clearing in the fog every four hours or so, a resurfacing from the rem depths, and so, here we are... a bit of a bloat from delicious cheese filled tort pasta with a cheesy sun dried tomato alfredo sauce and m^ms and grapefruit juice... feeling a big smile shining through blurry eyes... time for a shower and the start of another day...

it's 34 degrees, 1 degree celsius... wishing you a nice warm cozy hug and a beautiful day :)

sweet sleep

four hours of unexpected sleep in the middle of the day is such a wonderful gift and with the windows open and no kids screaming outside in the little park that is right below my windows, life only gets better than this when it is shared :)

the body smiles dreamily and wonders what i'm going to do next to challenge it, but i'm going to skip the gym tonight (i think... we shall see when i get back from dinner as i decided to head over {might even walk} to gators just down the street {a mile or so} for wings with some people i know from meetup)... waterford lakes if you're into it...

looking around this space i inhabit, it's definitely time to spend an hour (at least) cleaning up... and laundry just seems to pile up faster than ever with my softball schedule... neil young was right, a man needs a maid... a woman too, but i'm just being selfish at the moment... of course ol' neil may have been using the middle-english usage of the word, but i can still dream... samantha stevens, where is your cute little magical nose?...

and how are you fine people today? :)

moving in slow motion

after a while, when continuing to move after the body is relatively exhausted, all movement appears in slow motion... today was a long day of softball in the sun… much pitching and bending and pitching and bending (repeat hundreds of times)… muscles say thank you, but please stop now… home to dinner or a basmati rice and mushrooms with saffron, cashews, glazed walnuts, sautéed onions, and about a dozen other ingredients and condiments… along with a chicken-bacon-pineapple sausage (hey, i like pineapple)…

and then i quickly nodded off and when i woke, i wrote this line and uploaded this entry…

nite nite :)

personal inquiries authenticated here

in case you aren't aware, i've been talking to myself a lot in thereal cuz nobody else is talking to me here, so the previous entry title was me asking me, as is this one... just my playful way of teasing myself over the meaningless banter that goes on in my head all the time (and lately, is spilling over on to the web more and more... i mean, several times a day, even)...

so the nap came suddenly and four hours later, i woke and returned a call and met a friend who chose the movie, valkyrie... heavy duty stuff, but still, war... call me cold, but why didn't any of the fifteen failed attempts to kill hitler have in the plan someone who would be willing to die to make it happen, i mean, some0one willing to die for their country could have pulled it off... but leaving a bomb and trying to get away, well, lots of room for failure... fifteen failed attempts is a lot, after all...

after the movie, we went to play pool and i called another friend who was in from new york and he joined us... now i smell of tobacco because, well, humans are suicidal... and so, what else would you like to know? :)

softball tomorrow, so i should get some decent sleep tonight... i hope your saturday night was not alright for fighting, but was full of fun :)

not another morning already?

well, i so did not need to hot pockets at 3am last night, fool i be... and of course the nighttime cold/flu/cough medicine still wants sleep, not to mention the rest of me... but here i am, awake and heading out to another morning meeting and another day at the office... pity the fool i be, even as i smirk at the irony and stuff... and there was all that incentive to run and not bloat too...

make today a great today anyway, aye? (cuz it's more fun this way :)

ka-plowie

as in wowie, zowie, kaplowie, i nodded off... an hour nap was far from enough and might have been counter-productive, but maybe not... so now i hustle into the shower and out the door to the mini-party for fun and games...

are you having fun yet? :)

a choice of habit

doing this, checking in on the web for a few minutes a few times a day, and/or typing a few words day or a few times each day, is a choice and a habit, a choice that becomes a habit... and the choice can be selfish, an egocentric hunger to share beyond the daily routine or an emotional hunger to connect and be some part of the lives of others who are far away... or the choice can be out of boredome or altruism or any number of reasons... in the end, is is a choice and if wanted enough, the choice becomes a daily habit... a few minutes upon waking or before sleeping or whenever during the day... a few minutes of typing words into a box on a computer and clicking send, upload, publish, or whatever...

i choose this habit... and there have been times in this life when i chose it before, though previous times were different than this time... previously, there was a veil of playful insecurity disguised as creativity and babble that kept some distance between thereal daily life and the words written... perhaps i told myself that it was too egocentric to record the actual daily experiences on the public web... perhaps i was afraid that nobody would pay any attention and it would look foolish to write mundane details if nobody ever commented... whatever, the reasons for the previous incarnations of a daily daily life entry appear gone and here we are...

whether you are checking in daily or occasionally or not at all... whether these words are for me alone or for posterity or for the one or for friends who might have been or who might still be, the words are here... a choice of habit to take a few moments every day or even every few hours to type a few words into this box and share the details of life as i live it...

precious woke me to let me know she was getting on the highway to start her long drive up to ohio... because this is a long drive all by herself, the first time she's driving out of state by herself, i insisted she call every few hours... the nasal drip and ensuing cough seems to be getting worse, not better... dang... so much for getting the full long deep catch up sleep, aye :}

sleep now, perhance to...

after a nap

ah, precious just woke me cuz she's coming over to pick up a game for her birthday party tonight (it was the tenth and the concert/dinner last night was part of her present)... and she was pretty much right on time as my alarm was set to wake me at 5 so i can get ready for game night since i'm hosting...

thanks for keeping in touch with the daily life details, this is the closest we can get to actually being a real part of each others daily lives without actually being there... which is the purpose of this blog, after all... after all, this entry took sixty two seconds :)

so here's a minute just for you cuz i care and want to keep in touch and wish you were part of my daily days... and daze, but those take a little longer... and here we are - hope your saturday is fun too :)

and the world still...

whirls around?... yeah, well, i do, but being a single point in space for a long time, it is not easy to perceive sometimes (sometime?)... sharing becomes imaginary and imaginary becomes real and real, well, that becomes a semi-conscious dream that fades in and out of memory like the sun on a partly cloudly day, or less, but definitely not more...

huh?... what's that got to do with thereal?...

anyway, today was a quickish day at work, enough got done to keep up with the piles on my desk and a couple of surprises were dealt with, one special request was handled, and i left at 2, thinking i've got leftovers at home and i'm gonna enjoy some rare afternoon time, maybe clean or unpack some more... then, all of a sudden, i decided to go shopping...

some $200+ later, i have more food in the house and an assortment of other stuff i needed to varying degrees,,, air fresheners and carpet fresh powder cuz the place could use them and dryer sheets cuz the clothes could use them and bleach cuz the whites could use them and a tool kit to open the laptop to clean it out so it stops overheating and to open the hot water heater to turn it up so the water is hotter and a comforter cuz winter is coming and i haven't had a comforter in some time and an assortment of other odds and ends... and assorted foods... it's amazing how quickly the bill rises...

so i got home around 4:40 and ate and somehow, the whole evening flew by... i fell asleep here, that's it... i woke about 9pm and rasputin called about 9:30pm and i just got off the phone... we worked through some computer problems he was having with precious' old computer and i decided the rest of precious' birthday/holiday gift would be a portable hard drive cuz it is what they both need and she wants (it'll allow raspy to clear all her stuff off her old computer so it can be reformatted and work much faster cuz she has a lot of crap on it and probably spyware and stuff that slows it down)... my new laptop shall wait a bit longer...

and now, i am going to give myself some writing time... still dreaming of the partner, the muse, the constant companion, the editor, the collaborator, the friend who pays attention to all the little details here in the physical spaces (and in my written gardens too)... still watching the world still spinning around... still loving every minute of it, even as i hunger for more... still hoping you are well and happy and finding your dreams... and still finding smiles and laughter after all is said and done... take care and if you do thanksgiving, enjoy yourself...