late late whatever

sometimes the brain is just itching to write something so clever it would change the world, but then the food's ready (and i don't mean a tallahassee fruit loop) so what can i do other than put aside the keyboard and reach for the food cuz i don't want hot food to get cold cuz it tastes better hot and if i didn't cook it then ignoring it is an insult to the cook and i do not like insulting cooks so by the time the taste buds have orgasmed (and the cook might come along too) whatever clever words were carried away by winds unknown (maybe a secret santa?) and the best we can do is watch half a mechanical man infer that cleaning your chimney is something dirty...

now really, how can cleaning be dirty?... perhaps if you don't do it well... anyway, it is that time of night again, time to sit back and watch craig ferguson mock everything as only a man-child going through some sort of eternal puberty can... i think there should be a contest for the guest who turns reddest while on his show...

oh canada, where art that?

home and catching up

it's a wonderful day... an adorable day... a long exciting day... lots of walking and feeling physically great... everything went as well as any day at disney could... jane's influence was beautiful as usual... what can i say, fun is fun, a friend is a friend, disney is disney, and the day was wonderful...

yesterday was a wonderful day alone exploring inside memories and me all by myself, loved it and wrote more entries than any other day, ever, since being online...

today was a wonderful day not alone outside in the fresh air and world sharing with a fantastic person and great friend... loved today too and the balance is giddy good... time to unwind, catch up on the day (previous entries, though so many of the fun details were probably left out), and sit back and enjoy the glow :)

wonderful day

everything just went off right on time today... and i even found a gift for jackson that she's gonna love... and we ate healthy thanks to jane (except for the giant ice cream cookie sanwich she bought me... we watched the christmas processional and while it's not really my thing, we enjoyed it and rested a bit... watched the fireworks and headed out ahead of the crowd and it's rare to get to do everything you want to do at two parks in one day and have nothing at all go wrong but that's the kind of day it was... yay jane... yay disney... yay fun... yay :)

so what's going on in your world today? :)

timing is perfect

we are getting to do everything we want to do today thanks to timing the fast passes and the route through the parks... it's really rare so many things go just right and everything clicks... jane and i are having even more fun than we usually do (and we usually do) cuz everything is connecting so well... we got to star wars on fast pass at hollywood and ate there thanks to the fast pass and saw the osborne lights a couple of times and then got back and got the soaring ride in the land at epcot thanks to the bus timing and the fast pass we got earlier...

it's a very wonderful day :)

heading to hollywood

the kid is out and loving every minute of it... we did everything in the front of epcot except the spaceship one and visited most of the countries around the lake and got lots of exercise and found fun everywhere... my favorite park character from long ago, figment, sang the imagination song and it's bouncing around my head over and over and i love it... so many memories... fun fun fun :)

and now we are off to hollywood... wish you were here :)

bouncing around

like tigger and chip and dale and being the little kid i am the day is revving up in spite of the fatigue from lack of sleep... bouncing around in the beautiful weather, memories stirring, smiles widening, gonna coffee caffeinate the brain and body today and bounce around even more...

we are having fun :)

a disney day

headed to jane's house so her roommie (and a mutual friend) bear could get us into disney for the day (for free, it's good to have friends who work at disney) and we are excited to enjoy a disney day... epcot to start and probably hollywood studios later and while jane packed healthy food for us (she is such a healthy influence... too bad she lives so far away (40 minutes) and we don't spend more time together cuz i'd probably be thinner, fitter, and healthier if we hung out more... anyway, a fun day at disney ahead...

yay for fun and friends :)

thousands

over the years i've written in diaries, journals, blogs, and wherever regularly so that just about every day i record thoughts, feelings, perspectives, dreams, fantasies, whatever may be borne of my own mind or just passes through from sensory input... there are more than a few threads, strings of entries (or posts) from different perspectives in my head and more than a few of the writing spaces have more than a thousand entries, this one included... if you ask why, the simple answer is i love word play, literary expression, and keeping in touch with myself and the dream of communicating with others, especially the one... care to read and ask for more and the deeper layers of meaning, reason, and rhyme (and the secrets of the multiverse, even) may appear for you as communication personalizes...

here in the primary public writing space i am skimming the surface most of the time and even those i mention are re-named to respect privacy (for others seems to want much more privacy than i do) and even when i am away from this writing space for a day or few, i am still writing somewhere... writing is for my mind what singing is for my body and spirit, exercise, release, play, connection to the core and flights of fancy to freedom and infinity (and beyond :)

if you have an affinity for the written word (or for singing and/or music), perhaps you understand... you are welcome to read along and encouraged to share your words as well, here, there, or anywhere... communication is one of the primary gifts this life offers and i love giving and receiving... hope you love what you do too :)

anybody here?

yeah, i know, it's a hopefulness based on hope alone as i check to see if anybody stopped by any of my online spaces almost every time i return home, especially since starting this e-the-real blog where i stop in for brief updates and the waving the waterboys sang of all those years ago...

another game party with some of the funnest people in orlando and even though i was nodding off and so ready to sleep before i left, a little caffeine and sugar and i was playing and here we are, ten hours later, groggy but more awake than i was... friends and fun and the night...

maybe i'll get two hours sleep before morning practice and somehow i'll get some pants washed (or maybe i'll just stop and buy another pair of pants) for work this week, but after practice i'm hoping i don't stink too much so i can nap somewhere downtown before the party and the afternoon game so i might rejoin the party after the game (hoping i still don't stink too much) and somehow squeeze in getting the pants washed or bought and getting some sleep before starting another work week...

it's not like this is any sort of revelation (speaking of redundant thoughts), but there really are not enough hours in a day on this planet... i need to find a planet with 42 hour days, that is the answer, ya see :)

hope you are enjoying your sleep and your day is even more fun when you wake :)

happy birthday nic

and so i did

as you might discover if you found one of my latest new blogs, meaningless complaints, i felt inspired to explore blog names tonight and found so many wonderful blog names have died untimely deaths along the way because people just don't seem to respect the written word or posterity (or the illusion of permanence) much these days... once upon a time, it was different...

anyway, i did have much fun with myself tonight and babbling on and on and on and cleaned some and there are new blogs out there, some on the horizon, some down the road, some already kicking off their first entries and then some... i'll update the lists on the right of RealTime one of these days, until then, it's our little secret...

softball in the morning, possibly below freezing temperatures (no running for me, that's for sure), so sleep would be good tonight... i hope you are having fun with yourself too :)

memories

the sound of music flashes on before my eyes (cuz my fingers press the remote, it's not magic) and the flash-backs to some of the most wonderful sharings of this life fill my head with misty memories (and my eyes with warm fuzzies)... this is when i miss sharing intimacy most, when i feel the wonderful emo that lives in memories cuz as much as life is a celebration for me every moment, the intensity of sharing intimacy does increase the visceral experience exponentially... the best thing about this moment, besides the feelings, is the fact that i can still feel them even after all this time (after all these years, too :)

do it again?... wouldn't it be nice...

wanna see movies

Nine
Avatar
Sherlock Holmes
Disney's A Christmas Carol
The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus
Alvin and the Chipmunks: The Squeakquel
Precious (Based on the Novel Push by Sapphire)
Where the Wild Things Are
The Fourth Kind
Old Dogs
The Box
Amelia
2012

actually, i saw avatar already, but i'll see it again, especially on the full i-max 3-d cuz the universal studios is not the biggest one in the area so, it stays on the list... there are others i would see if you wanted to see others, but these are the ones i choose for the moment... wanna see movies?...

very much owie (softball report)

big ice bag on the right knee cuz the monday league is ridiculous as one of the teams is a full fledged B team with some definite A level players and the first three batters hit line drives right at me hard enough to bounce off my knee, hand, and glove (respectively) and shoot past infielders into the outfield (one so that the outfielder did not have to run in more for the ball)... that is definitely wrong, but hey, it was a sick kind of fun to play and get creamed by a team two plus levels above...

the unfair part is the league lets them qualify as a D comp team... if you recall, the Monday team is the one with all the guys who swing for the fences every time, which is not the way to win at softball... anyway, i sit with an ice pack on my very swollen knee and hope to be all healed by Sunday when the team that I take most seriously (and depends on me to pitch every pitch) plays again... that team (here's the good news) took both games of the double header yesterday, 5-0 in the first and 19-0 in the second game... we now have first place because we are tied with 8-2 records with a team we beat in the first game of the season...

we will likely be in the four team play-off in the sunday league... Monday has one more game and I won't miss it much... Tuesday is over and I won't miss that much either because it too was a macho-testostrone driven team, again, not the formula for winning softball... Thursday has three more games and it's becoming testosterone driven and I'll probably skip the game this thursday to let the knee and finger (finger very swollen too) rest...

i am back to hitting well, going eight for nine in my last fifteen at-bats with six walks and i scored from first twice and went first to third three times, which means my running is still improving... so yay for the fun and the improvement and the fun and the friends and the fun and the hope that i will find the dream team (which is more based on friends than winning) and the one so we can fall in love and live happilly ever after forever and ever and ever and...

how you doin? :)

remembered Cats

going in to the theatre i was trying to remember what Cats was about cuz it's been a long time since it first opened on Broadway and that's when i first saw it cuz once upon a time i saw every big show (and lots of smaller shows) on and off-Broadway the year they came out (and a few opening nights too, which can be so much more exciting than any other spectator theatre experience short of more involvement like afterparties and such and i remember some of those well) and i am missing the theatre experience a whole lot all of a sudden...

what's going on in your life?... and in you?

in the wee hours

this is when i miss the music the most... and the dream of the soulmate who shares the love of music and words and fun and games and caring and sharing and being in love as much as i do... like the way i do, aye mel... wishing you were somehow here again, whomever you are... come out, come out...

meanwhile, back in thereal... i've been playing lots of softball, winning and losing and getting better all the time (3 for 3 tonight, 11 for 12 with 2 walks for the week)... playing monday, tuesday, and thursday nights and sunday afternoons at the moment... and i've been working a lot, every month adding more work to the workload and making slow progress in changing the dysfunction of the system (the hippie fights the establishment from within, aye?)... not doing as much in the social or show going out stuff (as the calendar shows) and still personally intimately and creatively lonely, but loving the softball and even still enjoying the work, so it's all about the fun fun fun until the right one comes along (the beach boys meet art garfunkle meet the stones {cuz they couldn't drag me away}, or something like that)...

but where have you been?...

who me?... well, besides doing all that stuff, almost all my home time has been spent playing the video game diet... that is, i let my gaming addiction take over and replace my food addiction and viola (or violin, voila?... yeah, ok), i finally knocked off a lot of the weight i put on living with humans who eat like normal americans so i have eaten out only a few times in the past few months and have eaten a lot of lean protein and veggies and fruit and healthy fooods and low fat and low carbs and no sugars or chocolates and so on and i dropped 40 pounds (but gained back 10 this week cuz i binged and as if to mock me, the game broke, but it's not a serious relapse and i expect to drop another 20 pounds in the next month or two and yes, who knew)...

so what else is new?...

lots, but that's enough for this entry in the wee hours... if i get the game fixed i might disappear again, so i won't pretend i am back (even though two new blogs started this week... yes, you read right) and more than a dozen or so new entries popped out just in the last few hours (as if the brain never stopped writing, aye?)... can you imagine if there was actually some up close and personal inspiration in my life?... shhhh, let's not scare the grown-ups... so life goes on and i hope you are enjoying yours as much as i am enjoying mine, even if you're not getting everything you want at the moment... even if you've been gone (you're not forgotten)... even if you were never here...

live, laugh, love, and... dance! :)

home again (diggidy?)

whatever it means, i found the aches from this morning fade away after eating lunch, which was a big pile of raw spinach, a few ounces of black beans and a few ounces of chick peas and four cherry tomatoes and five or six broccoli tops and later in the afternoon, some ice tea (with splenda)... crazy, but the protein drink i found (50 calories, 10 gm protein, 16 ounces) must have rebuilt the muscles that were aching like crazy this morning (omigosh, it's a miracle, i am still getting younger... no wonder i keep giggling)...

i got home from softball about three hours ago (we won, finally, 11-9... i struck out at least six... struck out the side one inning... they still hit well when they were not striking out... we hit well in the first inning scoring 6 (i made the last out with a runner on third, sucks to be me that inning... i drove in the last two runs though with a bases loaded two out single to right, so i made up for the first inning fart... and anyway, i find (getting home) a notice that the fire marshall is due for an inspection on wednesday, so i decided to do two loads of laundry while cleaning and rearranging boxes (sort of unpacking a little_ and wow, there's a lot more room in this place now... a few more hours after the movie tomorrow (yeah, tomorrow night it's a movie with friends) and the place might even look more like an apartment than a storage garage... amazing, huh?... who knows what might come next :)

i should probably sleep now... though craig fergie is on... what is most amazing is i didn't talk myself into eating something... not even a 120 calorie vegetable soup that called out my name when i put yesterday's shopping away... i still didn't have time to shop more today, which might suck because publix (supermarket) had a seriously decent sale on veggies yesterday,.. i'm so not frugal these days... just one more thing somebody can save me from myself about, cha know... i've become so human, aye?...

and yet, i still want you to know (even if i am not exactly sure why all the time)... hope you are enjoying your night :)

spin around

working an extra couple of hours because the kids need it and now stopping by to change before heading out to softball... surprises in the mail, if only there was more time, there's a huge backlog of inspiration for the babbler from new york to toronto to cali to oz to left field and... right back around to here...

time to go back out into the world now, hope you are enjoying life too :)

almost feeling the burn

what i mean is, i would be feeling the burn of muscles from exercise if i was not adept at turning off pain sensors when i focus my concentration on manipulating the neuro-synaptic flow of information from body to brain... i think that is one of the key steps in growing/getting old, forgetting how to do that... i am feeling some of the burn slip through though, which means i am crossing limits and must take great care with further physical challenges until sufficient rest can be obtained, which will hopefully be before i strain something... the bottom line is feeling alive is good, being alive is dangerous, and staying alive is more fun than anything else i've tried, so i shall endeavor to succeed at all three for a change...

meanwhile, i am just getting home from softball and i did not sit once since leaving the house except to drive... pushing the limits... and i stopped for food... light veggie soups and pasta and some protein drinks... lunch was a big green salad, two bananas, grapefruit juice, and a protein drink (which was the most calories of anything by far)... everything consumed today so far was under 1000 calories total and i definitely burned well over 3000, so the process of weight loss begins... you remember, i made a promise?...

yes you do...

meanwhile, i am still loving this song... now i must shower so i can head out to the oscar's (as in academy award themed) game night on time... and if you are reading here and still wondering why i blog, well, you are reading, right... thank you for that... and you never know who might want to know more about me while remaining somewhat incognito, so this gives you (or them) the opportunity... makes sense to me :)

make tonight wonderful :)

g'morning sunshine

waking by friend's phone call instead of alarm is much better, at least today... i suppose it depends on the friend and what the friend want, obviously, cuz i am really hoping not to get too many more wake up i need money phone calls as this year has started with a plethora of them... enough to give the what about me? voice serious credibility, which is rare if you know me on the inside...

but this morning was a yay phone cal wake-up cuz the person is a ray of sunshine and we're going to meet later for a light dinner (healthy influences, maybe whole foods) and then check to see if i won a blingillion dollars ($164,000) cuz the grand prize drawing for a radio station wing place grand opening contest (wjjr and buffalo wild wings) is tonight and a girl from the radio station called to tell me i am a finalist... yeah, ha, probably with a thousand others, at least... but maybe i'll get a t-shirt...

and i know i've got this song in my head these days and it's still just moving in to my psyche, but it is so very cool when there is an actual magazine article about real world artist friend (scroll down to page 37) to share too (if you’ve been following along for a while, i took her to jc superstar over the summer) and you would love her and her work, so keep your eyes out for her and her work as the years pass and remember, you heard it here, even if it wasn’t first…

and then we (different friend, the one challenging me, though from afar, to run and be healthier) have a party to go to (so it's not a date, cuz i have no ambition to date and never really did after maybe once in high school... back to the long list of reasons i am alone?... well, the one i want to be with is different like me in this area as well, so there)... we'll meet for dinner and then check out the contest and then head to the party... i'm not sure who will be there (at the party), but i'll probably know some people as i usually do when going to private parties that are branching off from meetups these days and i am pretty sure this is one of those...

so i probably ought to nap a bit (clean and do laundry?... yes, that would be sensible as this place is way too cluttered and unkempt these days, but i do have softball from 9-11am with the serious team and then from 1-7pm with a couple of other teams tomorrow and then work and softball monday and i did stay up until dawn last night, so a nap would be the wisest thing to do... the alarm was originally set for 1:10pm, after all)... not moving in does make for more on-going clutter... six more months and i can move, three more months before i need to decide where... anyway, today and this weekend should be much fun...

are you gonna make today fun too?... i hope so :)

just enjoy the show

sometimes a song and a visual personality catches my attention and i find myself bouncing or bopping to the rhythm and feeling the melody and hearing the words singing in my head and seeing the smiling and laughing the giggling and feeling the comfort inside and outside and that, my friends, is love... so i am in love again, naturally... you would be too, if you were me... and if you are too, then maybe you are (close enough to play in the secret garden with me)...

who needs (e)thereal when there's love :)

make it so! :)