it's just a life

hey, Portugal showed up, cool... another country is represented, or representing, for that matter... and the number of page views continue to go up and i have no clue why... are you really real people out there reading or is this a figment of automatic spam-like activity from spam-like websites?... and why would these spam=like websites be sending you here to this blog?... to very entry, no less?... it is so very strange... every entry is getting at least a half dozen visits and some are getting dozens... and if it isn't spam-like statistical anomalies, then... do i have secret stalkers?... seriously, how many real every day readers?... and where from and why?...

it's just a life i share here... a fun life, a challenging life, an emo life, an irreverent life, but still, just a life... and if you are reading every entry and it's not just statistical spam, well, i apologize for being so flippant so often - and for not saying thank you more often... letting out all the frustration keeps me smiley inside :)

i complain a lot, but it's my way of dealing with frustration and not letting that frustration get in the way of life... i am really very lucky... i have a best friend who is also my roommate who is sensitive, kind, and a child inside, like me, and finding a compatible friend like her is not easy in this world... that would be jackson... it is great to be able to say i love you or love you to someone every day, or to hear her say it first as much as i do, and know we really mean it... she keeps whatever idealism is left in me alive... she cares about life and the planet and people more than i do and i so love her influence in my life... i ought to tell you that more often cuz it's way more true, important, and meaningful than the complaints... we wouldn't want posterity (or you) to get the wrong idea about my best friend, after all :)

and the rest of life, well, humanity is insane and i've got to talk about it somewhere, so i bring it here and to dozens of other blogs (and often link those here as i write in them... it's like writing dozens of books at the same time, though they are just collections of thoughts and rhymes and not any cohesive story)...

all in all i don't take anything nearly as seriously as it may seem in all my whining and complaining... what i take seriously is love and sharing and i whine and complain when i am lonely and not sharing as much as i want to share... and whatever else this blog is, it is my way of keeping in touch with me and working through the daily experience to find a positive perspective... if i am also keeping in touch with you, well, yay...

so thank you for being out there, and right here too...

and if you want to share something, not just comment, this blog is for you to write in open to anybody who wants to write in a blog... just give me an email address you want to use to sign up to google/blogger (cuz you've got to be signed up to write in these blog things) and i will add you as an author... or just leave a word here to let me know you are there... i mean, i know z and j and bloob and gm stop by now and then and maybe pretty often, but anybody else?... wait, are bloob and gm the same person?... and russia, how about you?... who am i missing?... curiosity is gonna explode my brain... you know how much i love to hear from you :)

or just just keep reading quietly if that's what you like...