the end of a wonderful day

the morning started cloudy in terms of mood because instead of falling asleep when i went to bed, i got a text and the the dog started and i was pondering how home life has changed recently from jackson hardly ever being home what with her being in love and almost always with sanford to the injuries and financial challenges of the past year to the disappointments in people i trusted professionally in recent times and personally throughout this life and understanding that i do have an active and passive role in creating my experience as i perceive and react to my perceptions which influences the experience like being awake 24 hours and then going to a 5k and having a whole day out ahead and realizing this body is likely closer to the death experience that it is to the birth experience and foolish neglect of the body, like not sleeping 24+ hours and then running a 5k after years of up and down fitness routines and the past year of injury that lead to a serious reduction in strength, stamina, and overall health and experience the oblivion of nobody knowing and therefore, nobody caring because to care about something you need to know it exists or is happening and then some, the morning was rather dark and gloomy and all sorts of quiet desperation...

and then i started coaching the team much more actively than i ever did before and they responded great and had the best day ever and even though it ended with an expected loss, they still had the best performance ever and thanked me greatly and felt really wonderful even though it was a little awkward with the other coach returning for the last game and the team asking for me to basically do what he usually does and he dismissed the idea offhand which irked a few players enough to say so...

we ate wonderful lunch at our favorite mediterranean place and then drove home to walk happiness and then back to the fields for more softball and then jackson and sanford and i went to ihop for food even though i could have easily gone to bed without eating and now that i ate i am wired so sitting here rambling and washing the jerseys we wore today cuz we have to be back at the fields at 7:15am tomorrow and as soon as the jerseys are washed i should hang them up to dry and get into bed but i want to shower too but after i shower i really ought to get into bed in spite of the being wired the midnight crossing and all and all in all it is presently end of a wonderful day... i will attempt to share more about it another time rather that writing all night or playing computer spades like i did all night last night... and the last three entries not withstanding, did i mention that all in all it is presently end of a wonderful day?...

hope you had a wonderful day too :)