waking for happiness

happiness misses jackson so much when she's away he doesn't sleep... and he begs to be out on the porch so he can watch every car... so we just went out for a walk cuz he woke me to go out and a car pulls up and parks and he is yanking to go over to the car instead of peeing or pooping and it's pretty awkward when the person screams because she is afraid of dogs and it's dark and i'm some sort of creep...

so we go back in and he's begging to go out on the porch to see the people getting out of their car hoping it's jackson... trouble is it's 51 degrees outside, but he's out there waiting for jackson... poor old dog, whimpering for his mommy... he never used to do this, but i think he senses his life is in it's last years or less and wants his mom around at night or he doesn't sleep well... and the neighbor's and their dog are as loud as usual so with the door open there's no sleep tonight... just repeat: moving soon, moving soon...

i know, i could just go into my room and close the door and let him fall asleep whimpering, but i love the old puppy so i stay up later with him when jackson is away... won't be able to give him this much attention when i head back to work, but at least these days... just need to get my body rested and back to the jog/walking again...

so easily distracted from the path, alas :}