back home, sorta

happiness too... though sanford arrived here before she did... sanford brought happiness and jackson's stuff over before jackson got home from work and is spending the night here... so when jackson walked in they hugged and kissed at the door and went into the bedroom... my hi, welcome home, was not heard... love, it definitely changes life for the rest of us... hello, i live here, ya know? lol... i sense some powerful neediness and inseperability going on (including physical clinging all the time i see them together, like including in the car when jackson is driving) and jackson is usually the kind who wants her private time and space now and then... jackson's also gaining weight and lamenting about it and eating out even more than before which she can't afford (she's already out of money and gets paid on fridays - and eating out all the time {or bringing outside food in} is definitely not the way to lose weight)... hope they work out some balance...

the concern-instincts of the parental unit in me continue to rise... anyway, they did their coupling thing on the couch and then went into jackson's room cuz jackson had work to do (notes for work)... and she did get most of the clothes off the couch and into her room - hope she had time to fold them... she would usually do it in the living room but i could see she needed to use the desk and chair to get a little space... we have some stuff to talk about (moving, timing, softball team, a couple of other activities like a 5k we do with a friend every year and a superbowl party we were going to do for our friends this year since we have the biggest tv), but she has not had time to talk to me lately...

my responsibility as her best friend is to help her do things she says she wants to do, right?... on the other hand, she's a big girl and makes her own decisions... and i've got to think about responsibility to myself too... it's a month with a lot of home expenses that only i cover (monthly electric, cable, phone, moving, $450 pet deposit, overlapping rents, $400 in other fees, $400 movers, utility moving fees, etc) and neither of them seem to be thinking about that at all... a roommate who shared expenses 50-50 (or who could even just discuss finances) would make my life a lot easier these days since i am not working, but a roommate in love isn't thinking about that... my wallet is telling me that i've got to start looking around for another roommate or i've got to cut back dramatically on expenses they way i did when i was living alone...

it was good to see her passing through for a few minutes anyway :)