life alone

meanwhile, back in the offline life, it's another lonely evening as jackson is out late... usually she tells me where she is and when she'll be home, not that she has any obligation to, but just so we keep in touch in case of emergencies like if she drove off the road and nobody knows or was mugged or something... guess i just need to detach from that level of bond and connection and concern and trust she can take care of herself and hopefully will replace me with sanford just in case she does get stuck somewhere....

it would be easier if i had a roommate paying half the bills, but i guess i would not save that much in a one bedroom alone... and she pays half the rent when she can...the savings in a one bedroom would probably pay for the cable and electric bills that i pay on my own and that could become a car payment or savings though... in a way this is how it is... buying family... i get people to stay close and in touch with money... most people do, even if they don't admit it... how many marriages end when one person loses a job or money troubles come... sad, but true...

of course there are other perspectives that could be as equally true... and who knows, someday i might find someone i enjoy living with who takes care of me... any rich beautiful hearts out there?... mila? (oh, i just had to :P )