happy xmas to all

did you know the original xmas poem 'twas the night before xmas closed with happy and not merry?... true... how about a xmas tree?... have one up in your house?... xmas was originally illegal in America and has been a holiday in the USA only since 1870 (not until 1907 in Oklahoma)... christian's would like us to be ignorant to this i suppose... but the 25th of december was not a christian holiday most of the years it was celebrated throughout history... and from my perspective, christians are welcome to celebrate december 25th, but they are not entitled to own it and cast aspirtions on all the other celebrations that have shared this date... so many traditions though to be true and always been have origins far from what people think... humans have a very short term memory when it comes to history (like on thanksgiving, but that's not a thought for tonight)... tonight i ponder xmas and send you all happy thoughts my way cuz any other way would be insincere and ingenuous...

on the surface, xmas and xmas stories are one of my favorite ways to feel warm and gooey as tears rolle down my face... it's a wonderful life can do that with just a clip from a few scenes, especially the final scene... many stories can do that, including stories like this one (instant waterworks) but seeing the title, i found myself thinking that humans define the word true very differently and often true has little or nothing to do with actual empirical truth or even known human history...

i believe words are very important and i have a pet peeve about the abuse of language (like lies... lies are such a common abuse of language most people don't even realize when they are lying every day... yet we pretend truth is so noble and right... so i don't have much to do with the typical human traditions and stories because people believe what they want to believe and that leads to arguments over what is truth... i revel in learning, knowledge, and a quest for the whole truth... it's so much more wonderful and exciting and life is such a richer, deeper experience when you keep your mind open to learning... so my hope for you during this holiday season is that you don't close your eyes to truth and welcome knowledge into your mind and life :)

honest love to all :)

waking before noon

this life of leisure is quite restful, though i feel a bit bloated today because i ate an after midnight dinner last night rich in fats (herring and sour cream)... oatmeal and flax seed for breakfast, whenever i get a little hungry (maybe an hour or two)... and get out to jog/walk at least a 2.5k today... cuz it is really getting late, alas...

and what is the date?... a day away from the... oh, this is sad... i look up solstice and find the first page is full of advertisements for sunglasses... i look up equinox and find a similar commercial override of information for cars and other stuff... i wonder if there is a search engine that has a no advertising filter... maybe an encyclopedia or wiki or dictionary... alas, the culture is so polluted with consumerism, we have forgotten the faces of our fathers, as roland would say...

though this curiosity might have some merit...

so scrolling down the page i find more pertinent information and of course i ask about the date because the mayan calendar ends tomorrow and there is all sorts of thoughts and prohesies and worries about the world ending (because without a human calendar keeping track of time, how can the world go on, right?... ahem)...

anyway, it would be nice to see some sort of enlightenment happen tomorrow at 11:12 (am) (or any time for that matter, really) and i shall set an alarm just to experience the moment cuz i am a very hopeful and curious being, ya know?...

lost in her eyes

well, wishful thinking, but seriously lost in the internet tonight as i've sat here for more than eight hours wandering mostly youtube watching and listening hour after hour and you can find much of my wandering and viewing and listening linked in all of the sites i saw pages specially tonight and tomorrow (remind me to fix that link tomorrow if i forget) culminating in the sheer adorableness and musical gifts of zooey deschanel who helped me finally completed the specific sites i saw for amy's birthday (though natalie portman and mila kunis {especially the last link} inspired the title of this entry and sheesh, where are faces like hers around here, sigh and all that)...

alas, and where did the actual physical world romantic i once was wander off to?... not to mention the imaginary one who wrote thousands of loves songs over the years... zooey would understand... yup, i am in love (yeah, lafs {love at first site} once again) with zooey and her music (adorableness is powerful, but mix it with a sultry sweet voice singing all those standards and it's linda ronstadt and melanie all over again) and still, mila's face melts me (seriously lafs)... superficial?... i so wish i had the opportunity to find out (as i laugh myself off to la la land now :)

nite nite and make it a wonderful day :)

what day is it now?

once again I shall attempt to type the entries into the word document to maintain a file on the computer of all the words I type (write, create, whatever) as if it will matter to someone someday outside of my head (aren’t you honored that I continued to strive to do this for you?... yeah, to dream the impossible dream and all that jazz) as I slipped away into the abyss of nothingness or whatever we might call the disconnect from the stream of consciousness that is the written word that began so long ago and continues within me and without me…

cha cha cha…

and welcome back my friends to the show that never ends…

please stand by :)