Thursday, November 26, 2009

hey blog family

especially the couple or few of you i am not sure how to reach at the moment cuz of movement or numbers changing and time passing and all that life stuff (and the many i haven't been sure of how to reach for years too)... from the places i created and all the places you gave me... a few from here and from other places too... every one of you who have touched my heart, even irl (you know... out there :)

i hope today is a good day in your world... and in the future, yours too...

i miss you :)

23 comments:

Anonymous said...

it says you have 12 followers on twitter, that's quite a bigger family than you have here.

Anonymous said...

I know what youre saying about twitter. I've never been very excited by it. But it would be really kind of perfect for me. I hate tapping out sentences on this iphone. Only z0tl was any good at doing that. He must have had small fingers.

candoor said...

it ate my comment, i fell asleep, i'll return tomorrow...

candoor said...

twice...

candoor said...

I don't think I know any of the followers on twitter, at least none have identified themselves to me as people I know... and since I've only "twitted" once, I am not sure what they are following, but I appreciate the illusion of attention any way it comes cuz I am easy that way :)

It would be perfect for me if I was actually communicating with people through it and had an internet connection on my phone and got in the habit of actually sending text messages through twitter... maybe an internet connection isn't needed and just text messaging, but I haven't explored it yet... I think it might make the absence of real life real time communication way too obvious and destroy much of the illusion of actually daily momentary meaningful communication and immediate caring/contact I tend to create in blogs...

shhhh, don't tell me that I know nobody is really here reading at this moment in my real time and that I am all alone cuz it might feel lonelier than I want it too (smirk, and all that jazz :)

meanwhile, you know z0tl?... of course I wonder if you are z0tl now cuz he did tend to write of himself in the third person from time to time and then, I wonder if you and the SPAM are the only two anonymous commenters I've got at the moment cuz there's really no way to know for sure and then, I wonder a lot of things and I wondered a lot more last night, but as I mentioned, the computer/connection ate the comment so this is a wake up comment and I have some stuff to do before I return to babble some more...

I appreciate the inspiration your words provide :)

Anonymous said...

Candoor: I don't venture into all the back alleys of your blog(s) um, very much.. I read around a little bit earlier but now I just check in to THE REAL to see what you're doing. I don't think I've ever seen THE SPAM™ comment anywhere so I guess there is more to investigate. Z0tl was who I was looking up when google led me to your blog. He was a frequent visitor to an efnet #chatroom that I visited once upon a time. Time really flies so that might have been many years ago? Gosh.. He is/was an interesting guy. Anyway, the 8:48 anon is not me so you have at least three commentors if you count THE SPAM™. I keep mentally picturing a huge canned Spam™ when I read that.. heh

j said...

i don't think i qualify as spam, but maybe i do and i just don't know it yet... but it has been a long long time and it is nice to drop in on friends now and then and say hello and find out what they're up to :)

hugs :)
-j

candoor said...

and now, chocolate cream pie... or creme pie... yes, it's been a long day... up early for work and work work work and mostly wandering around doing as i please, but it's still work work work (and fun) and then softball, unfortunately, the team got knocked out of the playoffs tonight, which is fine as i need a break and this team has another pitcher and my two championship teams don't and then off to hang with the team while waiting to head to the midnight movie (avatar, with free first showing passes at universal studios... it was great, especially for tree-huggers) and then hang a bit more and home to home-made pizza and middle of the night tv and now... chocolate cream (or creme) pie... life is good...

i have no intention of going to work tomorrow, naa naa :)

and as if this wasn't a wonderful enough day, here you are to widden my smile even more... and wait, was that you in my phone?... i ignore my phone a lot these days thanks to target who is harrassing me cuz i won't pay for their mistake, but i am smiling even bigger now...

j said...

:) :)

i haven't seen avatar yet... in fact i hadn't even heard of it until yesterday... i'm not exactly sure what that says about me ... other than i guess i've been spending a lot of time doing other things?

yes, i sent you a merry merry to your phone just to say hi and hello and merry and happy and spread sprinkles of hope and hugs wherever i can because i do so love making smiles ...

smiling back at you :)

candoor said...

waking from nap, must find where the phone was put when i got home... on the 16th... weird, the 16th seems to be haunting me tonight... found mail in the SPAM folder that should not have been there that leaves perplexed confusion in so many ways, i'll not even attempt to explain it until i get a good night's sleep (but laughing, that can be started now :)


and then, the laptop is acting very weird... microsoft and other software and websites acting weird...

anyway, you're just not into movies or the movie buzz... there's so much buzz in the air, we need to filter out a lot of it... i filter out most of the news of the world and especially the local news... i filter out a whole lot lately as brain overload due to fatigue and long term sleep deprivation and long term workload is the current state of yellow alert or something like that...

yay for smiles though, cuz they are the magic pill (like comments are happy pills, remember? :)

must sleep, must continue, must continue to maintain the precarious balance...

hug yay smile love thanks yay you :)

j said...

well, i don't know that i'm really that beyond the movies or movie buzz but i don't have cable television any more (or free broadcast t.v. for that matter since that would require an antenna setup), so i'm no longer the passive recipient of things like trailers or even news, and if i do want movie trailers i have to seek them out, which i guess really tells me how much i want them because i never do... but i'm still curious to see avatar :) ... and sherlock holmes too... and i actually do seek out the news on occasion, just cuz...

hoping everything is smiles and sunshine in your world today...

hugs :)

candoor said...

wow, time flies and comments get lost in the mail, or something like that... i hope all is well in your world these days :)

Anonymous said...

z0tl is dead since january 13th, 2009. this is z0tl speaking of him in third, like candyguru says he's fond of doing. i love you, man!

z0tl said...

z0tl is dead since january 13th, 2009 and i don't know that he'll ever come back to life again. i love you, man!

candoor said...

i miss you z - hoping you are more up than before and more, hoping you are building something, even if it's not the tastiest lemonade... but then, i have always seen mood as a choice as much as a roller coaster ride... that may just be the delusion i choose and i may just be lucky to choose it, but it's no less real to me...

i love you too man, and i hope you are finding a smile, even if z0tl never wakes up... i miss z0tl too, and hope for a reawakening... i miss so much, i'd like to miss missing now and then, but at least i don't miss laughing at myself :)

candoor said...

just so it is still clear and up to date... i still miss you all, each and every one :}

Anonymous said...

and we are all still missing each other too, very clever, etc.

j said...

it just seemed like it was time to click and paste a little note on this post since it's been awhile since anyone was here, I don't really have much to say except hi and hope .

candoor said...

yay j for waking this one up :)

what a wonderful idea, continuing to communicate here in this odd little entry that simply tries to reach out and hug you guys who are (or were once) in my blog family that was listed on the right sidebar of a blog once upon a time (i think it was the last one, The Real™)...

and glancing back (or up) at the comments above, i wonder if anonymous ever reconnected with z0tl, who is only merely nearly dead and not quite completely dead, even if he doesn't know it...

and glancing back at The Real™ (linked above), i wonder how q and p and al are doing... and i realize some members of the blog family are not linked there and some members were listed below under friends from elsewhere and magic, muses, memories cuz they didn't visit as much but were still family, heck i played with a couple, worked with a couple, and even slept with (lived with) one who's still in touch... i wonder how many of those links still work (not gonna find out at the moment, but maybe another time)...

ummmm, ok, so... site update for the blog family

z9 is gone from the web
q9 is there but inactive, last updated 2009
p9 is there by invitation only, alas
al9 is there (twice) but inactive, both last updated 2010

a & d is a private myspace, still around on facebook too
smash is there but inactive, last updated 2010
dandy requires a password, alas
eli is gone from the web
cali is a private myspace

annie is there but inactive, last updated 2006
nicole is there but inactive almost a year (2012)
nicim is there
moo is there, though moved to tumblr and is active there

clarity is there, inactive
zoe is there, inactive
alex requires a password, alas
gigi is there, inactive, last updated 2010

a few of the others below that are not me but most on the left side of right are me... and friends that left a mark, fuel for fantasies, sentimental favorites, ships passing, and others, well, maybe i'll explore them another time...

yes, this time i mean another time :)

i appreciate your hi and hope much more than these words could express... i hope today starts out and continues to be a beautiful day no matter what twists, turns, or other challenges life provides...

that goes for everyone too :)

j said...

hi again!

just me here sticking a "hi" on this page again.

Nice to see the updates on some familiar names and to know some of them are still around writing and sharing somewhere. It's kind of comforting in a way.

The constancy, the continuation.

the sharing

candoor said...

and you are so so so very appreciated for being here :)

Pernickety said...

I miss you c, j, and z! No idea how I stumbled upon this entry exactly, I must have somekind of notification system set up in my brain when blog family is mentioned; but just to add on another "hello" and "miss" you to the thread!

and z has probably divided by Zer0 somewhere along the way and disappeared into the 8.

candoor said...

yay!... no blog at all for now?... no worries, your choice, but encouragement to blog is what i do so i am doing it :)

thank you so much for saying hello and the missing... i miss you too...

i keep hoping THE GREAT AND POWERFUL Z0TL will blog again (and Mikie B too) will find inspiration to say hello here or somewhere...

this blog has turned into a madhouse of my babbling in short snippets over the last two years or so and it may be getting too big for it's britches (meaning number of entries causing some server errors), which only proves the babbler will not submit to the conformity of brief occasionally (or even once a day) blogging that most bloggers doo... long live the babbler, i guess lol lam :)

and being the impulsive hopelessly hopeful blog-fool i am, look what i did:
http://theblogfam.blogspot.com/
blog family

invites have been sent to you and j and z... don't know other email addresses and blogger requires an email address for invitations, so more invites if more family let me know they are out there... but it's there for us if we want to use it...

post anything, read, comment, delete, whatever we want to do...

just cuz it's there...

and cuz we care :)

thanks for the inspiration :)

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