full circles are not always profound

life comes full circle sometimes... well, maybe a lot of times... the specific time i am referring to in this particular reference was inspired by kate hudson, who inspires my smile almost as much as her mom used to and that is the circle, full, even...

hey, it's more profound in my head than it is in words, what can i say (not much, but i can narky giggle)... anyway, i suppose all i'd have to do is be a world famous something, top-shelf athelete, popular for whatever reason, or at least obscenely rich to attract a kate hudson or goldie or any of the beautiful people (ah, remember libboland?... yeah, hollywood ruins the libido for anyone in real life, aye?)...

it's been a while since i had a crush on anyone, fantasy hollywood star or real life person, libido has not been grabbed and shaken and stirred and stunned and all that in years... i don't think about that much, but there's a sea of sadness surrounding the island of absent romance... so maybe i am lonelier than i let myself know most of the time, but i also strive to be a person who does not spend much time fretting about things that are not cuz it's more fun to enjoy what is...

still, fun as i can have all by myself, i love to love and love to be in love and my heart says to me quietly sometimes late at night that it sure would be nice for one of those full circles to come around for me...

(sigh :)