Thursday, September 30, 2010

home free

decent softball, we won 13-3 and i was 1 for 2 with a walk and three rbis, the out was a great play by a diving shortstop to catch a line drive... the power hitters mostly popped up and grounded out once again with bases loaded a few times, and they wonder why we have an iffy record laterly... but a news season begins and we are 1-0...

snack and then sleep, perhaps... hope your having fun too :)

home briefly

another ridiculous day at work where the leadership does not know what i do and yet one or two try to tell me what i should do in my department and refuse to discuss how wrong they are... luckily, my boss, the ceo, will be back from his vacation soon and he makes the decisions... and usually, he will listen as he knows i know what i am doing... the continuing challenge of putting actual teamwork and function in a very territorial, dysfunctional, fear-filled family...

home briefly to walk happiness and eat and now, out to softball...

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

still going

and going, yeah, but no tv as i wandered youtube and found reason to upload a song to my webspace to put on the random pop news blog and in finding the song i started playing songs in alphabetical order which makes for an interesting playlist in and of itself... but then, there's not much else to do at this hour of the night in our culture beyond eat or masturbate or drive around rather aimlessly or watch bad tv or listen to music, so having done all of the above, i am left with my first love, music...

narf :)

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

another night of bliss

well, bliss is relative, after all, and there is bliss within us all, so when i give myself alone time, especially surprise alone time (like skipping a scheduled day of work at the last moment), bliss blossoms from within even if nobody is around to share it even if people are around who just don't get it... yummy food, semi-interesting (ok, at least curiously distracting) tv, smiling company, comfy rest, and bliss, deliciously playfully, profoundly, passionately, magically splendiferous bliss...

hope you found your bliss today :)

ny deli sour pickles

oh, so, yumilicious... after a sweet catch up on sleep morning and restful afternoon (a little kitchen cleaning and work, but home and restful) then yes (as the title suggests i suppose), the decadence (and potential dangers, alas) of eating meat, a good old fashioned (almost, it was frozen angus steak) cheeseburger with cheesy mashed potatoes was enhanced by an authentic new york sour dill pickle...

hey, this is (e)thereal, the life as it is lived, you expect maybe brilliantly witty excitement and revelations every single time? lol... heck, we'd be lucky if one out of a hundred daily life entries was profound or worth readin, i mean, face it, you'd only be interested in this if you were extremely bored or actually cared to know me... thanks for the latter...

hope your dinner was delish too :)

a little hooky

woke feeling like crap, the body begged for more rest and i decided long term health trumped work, so i called in sick today and went back to sleep... woke about two hours ago and did some work (for work) and now need to search for a driving school so i can keep the points off my license from the speed-trap ticket i got a few weeks ago (umm, was it a few months ago?... there's an entry somewhere in here about that but it's not findable for the moment, maybe i never uploaded it)...

so i'm off to school and hope you're having fun too :)

sports monday

four games of 21 with jackson and pollack and i felt energized, a final game of around the world and home for dinner, leftover new york deli while watching monday night football... it would have taken a miracle for me to come back in my fantasy game and that miracle would have meant jackson's team (da bears) would have to be demolished by their biggest rival (green bay) and that would have hurt, so i accepted the defeat and rooted for my roommie's team... and they won... and so did she, just barely, in her fantasy game... we play each other next week and my three best players have byes, so she has a great chance to go 2-2 and drop me to 2-2... we'll see next week :)

really should find my bed now... hope your evening was great like mine :)

Monday, September 27, 2010

work, shop, bball

that's the day that was... the usual workday, actually, more on the dull side than usual, an invstigation took me away from my desk in the afternoon... a project requested by the corporate vp took up most of the morning before and after meetings and that lead into the investigation which left an hour for email and then home... on the way home we stopped at publix for some food stuff for the house and now, pollack is coming over for basketball... if the rain holds off...

hope your day was more fun :)

still at it (laundry)

yes, many loads later, the laundry continues... hours of washing clothes, but one thing i've always wondered is how much of it is a waste of time... like, is it really necessary to spend an hour folding clothes?... and how about time spent ironing?... i remember back to toronto when i folded the kids clothes and it felt like an act of love because the world wanted to see the kids in neatly folded well pressed clothes and the kids wanted the world to see them in the same and yet, was that just teaching the kids to conform to yet another superficial time-wasting activity?...

yeah, ok, anyway, more laundry gets done, the pastrami was beyond delicious, amazing, actually, i'd forgotten what freshly cooked new york pastrami tastes like and the last knish, sheesh, i'd forgotten how much i love new york deli... i could easily ramble on for hours in nostalgic taste bud triggered memory babble...

everything else is fun... jackson got home from her weekend away with family and happiness was his usual hyper-excited self and the tv did it's thing in the background and most of the dishes got done (though many remain on the counter cuz putting them away just didn't squeeze into the evening and while i'd like to finish the laundry, i so want sleep...

how was your weekend? :)

Sunday, September 26, 2010

laundry fatigue

wishing for more time again as i finally decided to try to catch up on laundry and actually fold and put as much stuff away as i can before i pass out for the night (which could have easily happened already as i enjoyed the blazing midday heat for softball and am in that beach-blur state of mind, if you know what i mean)...

softball, won one, lost one, we are not 4-1 for the season... i didn't play in the loss, the coach pitched himself and only batted ten... the theory was the best ten hitters cuz we were playing the A-B team (i am content to be a D comp, a C player on good days, but they merged a few teams just for this season so some "B" players show up to play now and then and today, they did... they lost 24-6 (might have been worse)... i pitched the next game against a non-hybrid "C" team and we won 13-12 in eight innings in spite of lots of errors behind me...

now it's football on the tv, fantasy football on the computer, happiness for a run outside, cooking new york pastrami and other food, and laundry (with my eyes closing... ah, a nap would be so sweet, but too much to do, so wake up sleepy-head :)

having fun? :)

Saturday, September 25, 2010

another saturday night (one more time)

you can find me (or find out about me) in so many ways (and that doesn't even count facebook, twitter, myspace, and all the other social networking profiles and babbles out there), but then, first you'd have to want to and if you did, you could just call, aye?... smirking all the way home, the new york deli is so very deliciously nostalgic and perhaps what's why the babbler popped out for an entry elsewhere... a deliciously relaxing night and soon, sleep so to be as ready as i can be for softball tomorrow... hope you had as great a day as i did :)

keeping track, catching up

for the past few weeks or so, i've been sort of keeping a toc (table of contents) for all of my uploads (not quite all of my writings, but i may upload that somewhere new one of these days)... i used to do this long ago (i've mentioned it before) and stopped somewhere between thirty and forty thousand titles listed (averaged 3-4 rhymes a day back then, not counting other writings)... and while i have not actually figured out what i am doing with it and putting the list of links here is redundant because so many of the links are posts in this (e)thereal blog, posterity may want to know so this entry was uploaded (you might want to know too, aye?)...

sites i saw 11
can my head explode now? (e)thereal
sites i saw 12
thanks for all the cards and letters (e)thereal
sites i saw 13
pizza and snot (e)thereal
sites i saw 14
monster in your mind the video me
perception bullsugar
don't ask me why random pop news


Effective 10:48 PM 8/29/2010, a TOC of sorts

sites i saw 15
drying and a bit better (e)thereal
i really should sleep (e)thereal
sites i saw 16
sometimes i feel (e)thereal
could be body talk
i love this (and you) the video me
sites i saw 17
sometimes i feel (e)thereal
so naturally i'm awake (e)thereal
it is too easy or is it too easy random pop news
sites i saw 18
almost beautiful (e)thereal
sites i saw 19
one hour at a time... (e)thereal
wow, food (e)thereal
sites i saw 20
wow, bball (e)thereal
1500 (don't chew) (e)thereal
more than the sum of my links bullsugar
so asleep (e)thereal
snotty times (e)thereal
sites i saw 21
rolling bullsugar
just keep rolling (e)thereal
sites i saw 22
fun with cards (e)thereal
waking slowly (e)thereal
thought it was sunday (e)thereal
unharmony (e)thereal
can you handle reality? the video me
sites i saw 23
still snotty (e)thereal
sites i saw 24
a bit later, a bit dryer (e)thereal
sites i saw 25
continuing sagas (e)thereal
home, run, eat, nap (e)thereal
slept ten hours (e)thereal
where've i been (e)thereal
no really, asleep (e)thereal
i still cared (e)thereal
fascinated, no doubt background tv
eureka! background tv
haven background tv
tuesday night crisis background tv
monday night crisis background tv
wednesday night crisis background tv
thursday night crisis background tv
friday night crisis background tv
sunday night crisis background tv
saturday night crisis background tv
youtube background tv
if you must follow, follow yourself the video me
just like old times (e)thereal
old time scrolling (e)thereal
for those who missed the party (o!) (e)thereal
yeah, when you're a stranger (e)thereal
phew. yeah (e)thereal
blitheringly exhausterated (e)thereal
rain delays (e)thereal
another week (e)thereal
almost pushing the body (e)thereal
no new friends (e)thereal
cooking with electric (e)thereal
no jellyfish here (e)thereal
hiccups body talk
meg and dia - the one (audio only) random pop news
squeazing in words (e)thereal
sites i saw 26
and then there's food (e)thereal
2, 3, 4 (once again) (bullsugar)
like a memory (rhetoric)
ok, yeah, again and again (e)thereal
living the song (once in love)
still a good idea (friend's private blog)
part of me (be with me)
cuz it is (e)thereal
i wish i knew better now (relayshuns)
floating keyboard (e)thereal
all my life (once in love)
oh yeah, num yum (e)thereal
the promise of love (once in love)
the missing bullsugar!
promises momentary moods
you just had to babbling brevity
miss you (e)thereal
sites i saw 27
rally to restore sanity (random pop news)
daily show profile
daily (e)thereal
sites i saw 28
petition for more time (partial addendum)
saturdays are too short (e)thereal
wide awake at 4am (ad infinitum) (e)thereal
meg and dia - the one (the video me)
sites i saw 29
wideawake at 4am ad infinitum (e)thereal
nap time (e)thereal
simple mathematics (random pop news)
so much to know (e)thereal
belief (random pop news)
what was the song again? (random pop news)
belief (random pop news)
human nature? (random pop news)
and again (e)thereal
sites i saw 30
been gonish (e)thereal
tonight too (e)thereal
just before bed, maybe (e)thereal
perception - the reality beyond matter (random pop news)
ny deli (e)thereal
losing tv (e)thereal
just before bed, maybe (e)thereal
old ways (e)thereal
semi-remembering
ncis background tv
warehouse 13 background tv
fringe background tv
did someone say ny deli? (e)thereal
sites i saw 31
site i saw 32


and in just a moment or few...

keeping track, catching up (e)thereal
taste buddies bullsugar!
time passes realtime

did someone say ny deli?

precocious, perhaps, but there i was nodding off (actually, sleeping deeply) in the living room when the phone woke me twice and in my subconscious stupor, the brain debated about waking up or going to bed (only knowing that the sun was up, not knowing the time cuz i was not actually awake enough to move the body or open the eyes to look at the clock) and i decided to go to bed, but before i completely fell back to sleep, there was a knock at the door... a knock at the door?...

yes, a knock at the door... i went to the door and there were two packages, one for jackson for pampered chef stuff and the other was the special fedex saturday delivery of katz's deli... yes, new york deli freshly cuz just yesterday at my door...

so i just ate my first new york pastrami sandwich in more than ten years... and an authentic new york knish and sour pickle... the freshness and authenticity was so amazingly tastable, i must splurge on this more often... i have a four pound pastrami in the fresh for cooking later or tomorrow (probably later, tomorrow is softball all day)... i also have more knishes, sour pickles, and actual new york bagels (though even fresh yesterday is not a fresh out of the oven new york bagel, but it's as close as i can get down here so, ya7y for fedex and mail order food :)

Friday, September 24, 2010

semi-remembering

wow, milk can still loosen up this body's digestive track as well as anything, especially home made mocha frappaccino (is that the right name for a frozen coffee drink?... i am not awake much hip to the jive talk of the starbucks chic at the moment... could be babbling just under the surface, but who'd know these days with the silence silence silence silence echoing everywhere so obviously for anyone who cares to notice (but who knew?)... meanwhile, back in (e)thereal, predictable fireworks...

time to walk the dog...

old ways

yes, as the morning said to the commuter, your banality is showing... or is that the evening... in either case, or any, for that matter, the daily ritual of work, play, write, eat, sleep, bathe, excrete, and an odd end or two (not necessarily in that order) has swallowed me and much of my spirit la vie a la carte and all that jazz, but somewhere in the middle of the night to words flow somewhere in the middle of a dream the words flow somewhere in the middle of somewhere...

losing tv

or rather, tv is losing me... i tried getting into it, but the commercials drive me nuts... not just cuz most commercials, like politicians and religious leaders, pander to the stupidity and guillibility and fears ingrained in humans, but because they bleed banality... there really is so little original creativity in this world, alas...

meanwhile, home for the weekend, yay :)

yummy lunch of crab cakes and mac 'n cheese and cole slaw and some salads and silly work day where some research and information exchange got done, but not much else... home stopped for a frozen yogurt hot fudge sunday and popcorn cocolate milk for dessert... aren't you amazingly fascinated by my dietary choices?...

hey, some days are like this, enjoy :)

Thursday, September 23, 2010

ny deli

i'm not sure how much i spent but i just ordered ten pounds or so of new york deli, that's pastrami, knishes, bagels, and assorted other stuff... i'm drooling already... i'm not sure just how or when it will get here, but it's for saturday delivery either this saturday or next saturday and i'm hoping this saturday cuz i'm drooling already (i may have mentioned that)...

where there is a will there is a way, thanks to katz's deli and the canbook guy on facebook who pointed out that they do mail orders...

it's been a wonderful night, by the way... you? :)

and again

last night i played basketball a few hours, then came home and watched tv, warehouse 13 i think, and then was ready for bed and actually might have gotten there, though i remember seeing the clock past midnight, so i'm not exactly altogether sure...

i may not be altogether, for that matter...

meanwhile, work is typical work, dysfunctional and seriously emotional (at times emotionally unstable to the point where people walk out of meetings to avoid crying or screaming {and i am talking about the directors}... we make the best of what we've got... it really is sad and for a while i was giving them the power to push my buttons too, but i am realizing (actually, remembering) that their limitations do not have to be mine and once again, i must step back and do what i do when i remember myself (it is so easy to forget when i wander alone too long for the hunger {instinct?} to fit in or at least connect in some way drives sanity and rational reason away and replaces it with human co-dependency that helps bring a feeling of belonging)... so all in all (and all), i still think it's getting better, but as always, i could be wrong, aye? :)

anyway, i'll be back...

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

just before bed, maybe

chocolate milk made with unsweetened cocoa and stevie is an interesting mixture as the powdery cocoa does not dissolved all that well in fat free milk and certainly has issues with remaining in suspension, but it is as delicious as an almost sugar free completely fat free chocolate milk which topped off a popcorn dessert which followed a vegan chicken (joke, let's call it a soy patty) sandwich dinner which followed some semi-lazy basketball which followed a long day of sitting in the office sorting through papers and filing stacks of stuff that has been waiting years, in some cases, to be properly filed...

and how was your day? :)

tonight too

rested and watched warehouse 13 as and did one load of laundry, passing up basketball with dolphin (a neighbor friend i knew before moving in here) as last night with jackson and pollack was feeling good all day and the muscles asked for a night off... i forgot what dinner was so it couldn't have been too spectacular... ah yes, 97% fat kosher beef franks with defrosted buns (meh) and the usual condiments followed by vanilla yogurt for dessert... weekday neals are intended to be fat-reducing these days in the semi-conscious plan to lose some weight (when i remember)...

and sleep would have come much earlier, but jackson told me the internet was down around 9:50pm so i called at 10pm and by 10:30 or so the internet was up and running again and i have been wandering ever since from simple mathematics to belief and what was the song again? and human nature?...

anyway, hours later, i ought to find the bed, aye? :)

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

been gonish

gone-ish?... well, filling in the gaps so you'd never know unless you were right here waiting like richard marx or something (was that a stalker song?... how about if it takes forever i will wait for you or whatever it's called?... i used to sing that to someone every night to put her to sleep, am i creepy or romantic?...

anyway, got home from work and was surprised to find basketball was on the agenda and three-way was the most grueling yet and yay for a great workout... dinner was delish veggie burgers with cheese on a bed of onion-mushroom sautee (jacksom took a photo of the masterpiece for the master chef people)... and i actually got to sleep early...

yeah, tonight was a good one :)

Monday, September 20, 2010

so much to know

i turned the tv off at ten or so and came in here to check my fantasy football teams (i won again this weekend, 2-0) and other online fun and facebook and other online networking (though i never got to email) and suddenly i was watching more youtube videos like this one and remembering how much i knew before i started learning from humans the human ways...

it was a fun day, winning a close one in the B-level competitive league to go to 3-0 and winning one of the evening games, but watching the team fall apart with wild throws and pop-up hitting to lose the playoff game... i think they really do not want to play softball as much as they think they do, especially not when the heat and second games start taking their toll... meanwhile, i'm ready for more... still, i get to play and make it fun...

jackson wanted sushi so we stopped for dinner on the way home and then, a bit of sunday night football but early to the bedroom for both of us and i almost went to bed... maybe now would be a good time :)

hope you had a great fun exciting day too (and educational :)

Sunday, September 19, 2010

nap time

ok, as the sun is up and i have three, maybe four softball games to play starting at noon and then want to get in some basketball and/or gym, i'm gonna take a nap how, but i loved the wandering through videos i just did and ot just cuz there's cuteness in them, much more for the intellects, humor, and playfulness of the writers/performers...

you may have had to be there... nite nite :)

wide awake at 4am (ad infinitum)

yeah, it is one of the chapter titles of the story of this life as i've known it so far (and also a carpenter's song, but linking to lyrics and music i uploaded is no longer simple since att {who sucks, by the way} deleted about thirty megs of words and art and music i trusted to their personal web pages some ten years ago, but that's the start of another long rant and i've not been babbling, no less ranting {and the ranting pages were part of the loss at the cruel hands of att as well {did i mention att sucks?}, hence no linkage there either and so many thousands of links on thousands of blog pages are dead, killed, again, by the {all together now} att suckage... seems to have struck me suddenly, most likely cuz the babbler is awake too} and mostly i've just gotten out of the habit so the connective cohesion of linguistic aerobatics does not get the attention to detail it requires to remain fluid and still perfectly patterned after logical thought in spite of appearing as irrational nonsense caused by the human brain learned {and possible somewhat natural} reaction to the common {and uncommon} run on sentence muddled with parenthetic asides and insides too), but that's beside the point...

whatever that was...

momentarily i am once again saved by the music and recapping (e)thereal, which is what this blog is about (as opposed to the almost babbling that almost occured almost a few moments ago, almost), i enjoyed a fun night playing games with friends, though more fun when the games were played, that is.... it is challenging to play games that require concentration and attention and consistent pacing with people who exhibit add behaviors, but friends are friends and i make it fun by not taking anything seriously... someday my princess will come and save me from the humans, but until then, i'll make the best of life as it is (snarky, no doubt :)

and now, something else... enjoy yourself, whatever you're doing :)

Saturday, September 18, 2010

saturdays are too short

i am adding that to my petition to the universe and also, after sleeping past noon, wandered the web and read some news and wrote some stuff and uploaded more stuff and visited facebook a bit (been doing that less and less lately and seemed to completely get out of the meetup habit the last few months) and meanwhile, blogger has been goofy slow and erasing words again (so why am i typing in this stupid unreliable box instead of a word document or even a notpad?... whatever, right?)... so much to do, so little time, and i didn't even get to the living room to watch any college football today... like i said, saturdays are too short...

it's time to shower and head out to another party... have fun :)




daily

i now have a daily show profile... i have no clue as to just what i will do with my daily show profile, but i've got one and somehow, feel a little more patriotic for getting it... i have ambivalent feelings about the whole concept of patriotism though, so i am not sure you should go waving a flag about all this, but i thought you might like to know just the same cuz, after all, it's not every day i go and get a daily show profile...

are we having fun yet? :)

Friday, September 17, 2010

miss you

bits and pieces fall away into so many other writing spaces, blogs and the like, as this week found me connecting with music and memories and more (with chocolate, milk, of course) and the look upon a face in a photograph almost called me back to when i was even more alive and in love and the rhymes started flowing again (it's been so long, sorta) and the week comes to an end busy with work and exercise (basketball and the gym with jackson and softball with the various sundries) and fun and games and friends (and chocolate milk, naturally) and if i have any more fun i'll need to pee...

hope you enjoyed everything too :)

oh yeah, num yum

not number or dumb or whatever, but the numbing yumminess of almost overdosing on comfort foods and of course, chocolate mousse (jackson made it tonight and it was waiting for me when i got home from softball... so much yay :)

and the romantics out there are probably hoping jackson and i would be singing something like this to each other one of these days but you've got that all wrong brother, we ride different rockets to the stars, but share much of the same pleasures on our respective journeys... it is someone else inspiring the recent plethora of mushy gushy emocentric love stuff (he mentions with a cheesy grin :)

memories are such marvelous monsters :)

Thursday, September 16, 2010

floating keyboard

sorta cuz it sits kind of between my knees held up in space kind of bouncing as i type just waiting for me to press too hard and push it from the grips of the knee stand that holds it floating...

yes, i am apparently still awake... pigged out on oak crackers and chocolate milk mostly because the craving to share is strong tonight (or the craving to share is strong because the snacking and chocolate milk woke me up (in so many ways) and lead me to remember (promises promises?) and times i loved and sang and knew everything was made of hope in the heart...

all my life :)

cuz it is

did i do this already? (probably, but it's probably going to probably be done probably again because i will probably forget and probably ask if i did it before, probably)... it's just cuz i want so much to share so much with so much of me with you so much...

really, who has time? :)


sites i saw 11
can my head explode now? (e)thereal
sites i saw 12
thanks for all the cards and letters (e)thereal
sites i saw 13
pizza and snot (e)thereal
sites i saw 14
monster in your mind the video me
perception bullsugar
don't ask me why random pop news
sites i saw 15
drying and a bit better (e)thereal
i really should sleep (e)thereal
sites i saw 16
sometimes i feel (e)thereal
could be body talk
i love this (and you) the video me
sites i saw 17
sometimes i feel (e)thereal
so naturally i'm awake (e)thereal
it is too easy or is it too easy random pop news
sites i saw 18
almost beautiful (e)thereal
sites i saw 19
one hour at a time... (e)thereal
wow, food (e)thereal
sites i saw 20
wow, bball (e)thereal
1500 (don't chew) (e)thereal
more than the sum of my links bullsugar
so asleep (e)thereal
snotty times (e)thereal
sites i saw 21
rolling bullsugar
just keep rolling (e)thereal
sites i saw 22
fun with cards (e)thereal
waking slowly (e)thereal
thought it was sunday (e)thereal
unharmony (e)thereal
can you handle reality? the video me
sites i saw 23
still snotty (e)thereal
sites i saw 24
a bit later, a bit dryer (e)thereal
sites i saw 25
continuing sagas (e)thereal
home, run, eat, nap (e)thereal
slept ten hours (e)thereal
where've i been (e)thereal
no really, asleep (e)thereal
i still cared (e)thereal
fascinated, no doubt background tv
eureka! background tv
haven background tv
tuesday night crisis background tv
monday night crisis background tv
wednesday night crisis background tv
thursday night crisis background tv
friday night crisis background tv
sunday night crisis background tv
saturday night crisis background tv
youtube background tv
if you must follow, follow yourself the video me
just like old times (e)thereal
old time scrolling (e)thereal
for those who missed the party (o!) (e)thereal
yeah, when you're a stranger (e)thereal
phew. yeah (e)thereal
blitheringly exhausterated (e)thereal
rain delays (e)thereal
another week (e)thereal
almost pushing the body (e)thereal
no new friends (e)thereal
cooking with electric (e)thereal
no jellyfish here (e)thereal
hiccups body talk
meg and dia - the one (audio only) random pop news
squeazing in words (e)thereal
and then there's food (e)thereal
2, 3, 4 (once again) (bullsugar)
like a memory (rhetoric)
ok, yeah, again and again (e)thereal
living the song (once in love)
still a good idea (friend's private blog)
part of me (be with me)

ok, yeah, again and again

meanwhile in the daily physical life, meg and dia brings a moment of reflection and amazement (omigosh, aye?) that slips back into the life of responsibility and success (of a sort) and a wonderful night as hours ago i arrived at this domicile in which I sleep when I sleep and I’ll entry that time later with a backdatestamp (it’s a new word, look it up when the future gets here) so you’ve already read it unless you are not reading chronologically and then all hell may break loose in your time stream so don’t get hung up on the line or it’ll be bullsugar (but who wants to know, anyway)…

so there’s chocolate milk and tv and the words and the dreams (I left, but I never said goodbye) and the music and did I mention the words (and dreams?)… the night happened after the day happened and it was all much fun and productivity and distraction and all that, but there’s still an empty space for love (what was that song?)…

narf :)

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

and then there's food

master chef is one of jackson’s shows and it’s way too dangerous for me cuz it triggers hunger as much as food commercials so I grabbed some yogurt and then made chocolate milk and in I stay up late again tonight, will probably go for some other snack, healthy, but late… oh, sweet chocolate milk drink (I add stevia and cocoa and enough ice to fill a half gallon jug and then shake shake shake… hey, no ice cream and fat free milk, so it’s not that bad for the belly, cha)…

and basketball was fun, but not enough exercise, but jackson was tired so we stopped after four games and no gym… I’m gonna have to push myself alone more cuz this body consumes too many calories and has too much energy to go light on exercise… jackson came back from a 15-4 deficit in the second game but not just cuz I lightened up, cuz of fifteen straight points by hitting nine straight foul shots and three crazy good jump shots so I blinked and it was 19-18 I took a lazy shot and she hit an amazing off balance fall away hook shot to win (cuz yeah I am that good and that’s the only way to beat me, right)… much fun… just not enough exercise…

anyway, time for chocolate milk and tv and rest…

squeazing in words

home a bit late, out with happiness for a run, and he is learning to listen better off leash, even stopping when he saw a dog without taking off toward the dog, but once on leash he yanked like crazy as if all he wanted to do was get to the dog and once there, nonchalance followed by ambivalence followed by let’s go somewhere else… it was a good walk/run and then, dinner, yummy boca cheeseburger with the veggie delish dish (I should have tons of it and bottle it for future eating) and now, out to basketball…

see ya later :)

no jellyfish here

so for the second night in a row after a week of almost hard core change of eating habits to healthier choices and times of day and balance and smaller portions and most of all, no sugars, fats, few carbs, and almost nothing processed, i pig out after midnight (almost after tonight), but at least it was a veggie binge... so a veggie bloat may pass easier and not pile as much weight on, or so says the hope, aye?...

watched warehouse 13 tonight, a show slowly growing on me because of the humor unlike other magical dark artifact shows of the past that i occasionally watched but was not much interested in watching the others even in reruns, but i seem to want to see the finale of warehouse 13, even if there is a might touch of the ambivalence about watching tv too much alone (what was that poem she sent me that I’ve never been able to find again about a man being alone too long?)…

right, so the night should have concluded hours ago when I started nodding off, but instead, I pigged out on the biggie dish, which is excellent hot or cold cuz I love it that much even if it never comes out exactly the same way twice and now have that groggy bloated energy that lays around and passes gas (though I haven’t much tonight, actually) and yawn a lot, instead of getting a good healthy night of sleep alas and all that alackness monster stuff...

could babble given half the chance… but no jellyfish here :)

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

cooking with electric

yeah, so i've been in the kitchen cooking for the past two hours, at least, since i got home from work, and eating, and cooking continues at the veggies take their time (onions, mushrooms, and eggplant with garlic and a variety of spices and condiments that remain a secret, even to me, cuz i just pick up what appeals to me when i cook this particular {or peculiar?} dish... another busy day turning numbers into words that explain why people do what they do…

hope your day and cooking and eating and evening is fun too :)

no new friends

facebook blocked me from adding new friends for a few hours or sayd cuz i was adding new friends from the harry chapin family of interwoven web spaces (probably was not buying stuff or scouting commercials enough)... time for sleep anyway, and pigged out cuz i stayed up too late, but then, facebook, so it all comes around to the same thing...

make your life fun :)

Monday, September 13, 2010

almost pushing the body

it is much more challenging than it's ever been in this life to push the body to it's limits, especially after being awake eleven or twelve hours... aging is not always a fun experience, snarfle... but the basketball was played again tonight and being weaker (dropped under 200 pounds this morning, that's more than ten pounds in a week) and tireder (three hours sleep over the weekend and hard core exercise, not quite caught up last night) and ate very light veggie foods today and queasy bloated innard (kidneys adjusting to diet change), but still did good…

hope your evening is good too :)

another week

and it begins as most weeks do, with lots odds and ends and mixed feelings cuz i love the work, but have a very disfunctional work family and barely adequate computer equipment so there are more unnecessary challenges than necessary to keep things interesting so i deal with frustration and wasting time as part of the daily diet...

speaking of food, or at least food words, lunch was salad and dinner was v8 veggie juice and grapefruit and fat free turkey with fat free cheese and fat free mayo and dark spicy mustard and water and in a minute or two, it's time for basketball...

hope you have a full day too :)

Sunday, September 12, 2010

rain delays

trying to stay active in central florida, especially during the summer and fall, is hampered by afternoon and evening downpours... i mean, sunshine beautiful days suddenly disappear and become thunderstorms that slow drivers to a crawl and scare little children, which makes playing outdoor sports challenging as sirens go off closing facilities and parks... and once again, as it did the past few thursdays and too many other evenings, rain cancells softball and by the time we get home it's pouring so no basketball and so, boring gym again...

best for the body thought since i slept 1 hour last night and two hours this afternoon before the morning game (previous entry)... i may eat, get to the gym, then sit back and let the sleep swallow me whole...

how was your weekend? :)

blitheringly exhausterated

yeah, that's beyond tired, way... must monitor muscles to avoid crampsor worse... must nap now... yay we won the first game 14-2 and no earned runs and i scred once and nap now...

later :)

phew. yeah

basketball by myself in the heat, then the gym for 30 minutes of hard upper body pushing and pulling on the elliptical, then two games of 21 with jackson in the heat and finally a game of around the world and here i am almost four hours later feeling great... the heat had me slightly woozy at times as i pushed hard (had to come back from 10 points down to win in the second game of 21... i almost always win since i have a height advantage, but jackson almost always wins around the world with a better outside shot)...

time to rest, shower, and head out to parties - make your weekend fun too :)

yeah, when you're a stranger

people are strange... so many want so much control over others for so many reasons they justify as valid and necesary and acceptable and all it does in most cases is divide people and hurt feelings and judge people and create separation and crummy relationships all around... no wonder i revert to a hermit phase every now and then in this life... alas, two parties last night, the both fun, but one asking me to choose between friends and that is not cool for me...

and how was your weekend so far? :)

Saturday, September 11, 2010

old time scrolling

yeah, just like old times (sorta) cuz the last entry actually required scrolling to be read and tons of links so much time would be needed to actually experience the entire entry which doesn't happen much anymore but used to happen all the time when babbling roamed free and the scrolling was just part of the experience as i said (as was redundancy, of course)...

waking just, slight bloatation due to massive chocolate milk and popcorn after midnight last night, though calorically speaking, not so much... gym and or bball today would be good before heading out to a party tonight... hope you have fun too :)

just like old times (sorta)

yeah, once upon a time i wrote at least three rhymes (lyrical poetry, even) a day among other babblings and i kept track in a log called toc, or TOC even, which stood for table of contents (or Table of Contents), even... wasn't i clever?... it was in a paradox 3.5 database file and had dates and times and all sorts of details in a nice sortable database... and in the last couple of weeks, after a many year break (decades, even), i started a rudimentary list in a notepad file that, after html does it's thing, looks something like this:

sites i saw 11
can my head explode now? (e)thereal
sites i saw 12
thanks for all the cards and letters (e)thereal
sites i saw 13
pizza and snot (e)thereal
sites i saw 14
monster in your mind the video me
perception bullsugar
don't ask me why random pop news
sites i saw 15
drying and a bit better (e)thereal
i really should sleep (e)thereal
sites i saw 16
sometimes i feel (e)thereal
could be body talk
i love this (and you) the video me
sites i saw 17
sometimes i feel (e)thereal
so naturally i'm awake (e)thereal
it is too easy or is it too easy random pop news
sites i saw 18
almost beautiful (e)thereal
sites i saw 19
one hour at a time... (e)thereal
wow, food (e)thereal
sites i saw 20
wow, bball (e)thereal
1500 (don't chew) (e)thereal
more than the sum of my links bullsugar
so asleep (e)thereal
snotty times (e)thereal
sites i saw 21
rolling bullsugar
just keep rolling (e)thereal
sites i saw 22
fun with cards (e)thereal
waking slowly (e)thereal
thought it was sunday (e)thereal
unharmony (e)thereal
can you handle reality? the video me
sites i saw 23
still snotty (e)thereal
sites i saw 24
a bit later, a bit dryer (e)thereal
sites i saw 25
continuing sagas (e)thereal
home, run, eat, nap (e)thereal
slept ten hours (e)thereal
where've i been (e)thereal
no really, asleep (e)thereal
i still cared (e)thereal
fascinated, no doubt background tv
eureka! background tv
haven background tv
tuesday night crisis background tv
monday night crisis background tv
wednesday night crisis background tv
thursday night crisis background tv
friday night crisis background tv
sunday night crisis background tv
saturday night crisis background tv
youtube background tv
if you must follow, follow yourself the video me


omigosh, a chronological list of everything i put on the web?... well, not everything as i do not have a comment blog where i'd copy and paste all my comments (though i am doing some of that in the new linkes blog when I leave a comment on a video or some site, so maybe it is almost everything, wow and all)... yeah, most entries are either here of links, but still, gotta be impressing someone somehow somewhere (where there's a place for us, ya know?)... who knows what might happen next :)

where've i been?

so like besides the eleven new entries in the tv blog (what?) and watching a bit of the tube and playing four games of 21 (basketball) with jackson (she wore me down and beat me in the final game... old man craig would understand, snark), not much happened tonight (or last night, now that midnight has come and gone)...

the day was busy with work, much communication and setting up of meetings and preparation for special project meetings for next week, and much falling behind on the regular monthly reports due for the regular big monthly meeting, which happens some months, especially with a ceo who just doesn't get it, whatever it may be...

and now, back to the mad adventure of typing whatever comes to mind wherever i find myself (might even slip a few catch-up enties in right before this one as if they were always there and you'd never have known until you got here, wherever this might be, or whenever, for that matter)... you should have been there (then, i suppose), wherever (and/or whenever) there/then or whatever was... and if you haven't noticed, i'm certainly enjoying my snark tonight :)

Friday, September 10, 2010

i still cared

even when i don't make time to come here... i mean, the heart still longs to share something meaningful and fun with you (and still dreams of falling in love, which brings us to the next segue, perchance and all)... so i signed up for plenty of fish i hear and that's what pulled me away from here last night and tonight (cuz i wasn't here if you were then, but you'd never known unless you understand the nature of blog time and such)... so far, the sight is not appealing much, or even a little... disappointed i might be if i was expecting anything, but i wasn't so i'm not... much (snarf)...

and so where have you been? :)

Thursday, September 9, 2010

no really, asleep

that's right, i was asleep at this time and have been actually sleeping occasionally more than a few hours this week, all part of the master plan to drop this body back under the bloated 200 pound mark (in physical weight, that is) and maybe finally stay there for good in this life as i've suggested somewhat half-heartedly to myself so many times before... so much for master plans, aye?)...

days full of work, night full of rain so softball was rained out (later, actually) and so was basketball, but we did get to the gym two nights in a row and i have eaten vegetarian all week and what with this strange thing known as actually sleep, so am i really healthier?... you'll just have to come and check my vitals i suppose... well, there they go rising already at that thought, aye?...

and your week? :)

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

slept ten hours

last night, so naturally i'm groggy with awakeness tonight and yet, discombobulated cuz i ate healthy and light and am having caffeine and sugar withdrawals and all that body changing stuff... so i'm listening to the vh1 idea of the greatest artists of all time and all the way through i disagree, but there's no accounting for taste, after all, mine included... individuality doesn't help, aye? (laughter or die! :)

long working day, must remember to eat tomorrow... belly bloat in spite of eating light and little all day... strange abdomenal cavity these days, it doesn't go down the way it used to on a day or few of light eating... must be full of gaseous tumors or something (laughter or die! :)

and how was your day? :)

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

home, run, eat, nap

again and the body wakes sensuality quakes blubber shakes and laughter aches (that takes the cakes, aye?)... why don't i crawl to bed when i am falling out but instead i root about for snacks and find awakening mind going blind from oral pleasures if you know what i mean...

and you, how was your day? :)

continuing sagas

so after hearing friends talk about it i decided to venture out into the online meeting place world and sign up and answer the psychobabble questions at plenty of fish and wither my ridiculous standards or the failings of the human race, my part is to explore the pleasures and pains and occasionally, the narration...

perhaps the fish will bring some sharing, for now, sleep...

Monday, September 6, 2010

a bit later, a bit dryer

eating leftover eggplant parm and stuff with some fishcakes (cuz the leftovers weren't enough) and sharing the meat pie with jackson who just got home and watching some ncis and bones while the washer and dryer do their thing on the laundry and the nose is just a bit less snotty... food delicious, rest good, soon, basketball...

share your day? :)

still snotty

yup, woke up snotty as ever and still snotty even after a shower and a a good dump of the mucous stuff (which is information you just had to have, right?... well, why else would you come here so religiously... hosana domina domina domino and all that jazz)...

today is a cleaning day... laundry, dishes, kitchen, living room... yeah, still no time to really do the bedroom... for the moment i am resting after a shower and run with happiness and waiting for the laundry and dishwasher to run their respective cycles...

having fun yet? :)

Sunday, September 5, 2010

unharmony

apparently eharmony is having another free wekend and with one day left, i just noticed... and also apparently, i do not have any actual matches, but the site tells me that i have a few hundred flexible matchs around the world when i open the match criteria to just about anyone... apparently (yeah, again) i am too different to be matched with anyone normal, or at least anyone on eharmony...

my perfect match must be somewhere else...

pass the popcorn :)

thought it was sunday

but there's no football on tv, so i am puzzled and lost in time, or something like that... and as a wake from a mini-nap i search for something to occupy my mind on the tv tube and find futurama and there they are, lost in time... the only difference is they are lost in a fictitious future and here i am, wherever this is... whenever, even... just thought you might be as amused as i was :)

slept and then, giovanni's for a rare veal parm and they do not do veal nearly well enough to do it there again, but the spagetti carbonara and eggplant parm were definitely yum yum... and there's lunch and dinner for tomorrow as well, so what else is knew... sleepy night at home i guess, just as was tentatively planned... and you? :)

waking slowly

another turned upsiade down weekend (just the way i like it as night becomes day and so on)... party until past 4am the second ight in a row and still one more night to this weekend... yay and all... gonna rest i think and enjoy myself... hope you do too :)

fun with cards

ok, so friends were there too and friends made the cards much more fun, but people also complicate the fun with ivisive control issues and foolish games (thank you jewel) and conflicts that seem so ridiculous and affected to me, but people seem to thrive on their dramas which is why i am so alone and outside of the human condition, socially... i just do not relate and feel detached from the emotional dramas, but i do my best to share fun with friends cuz i love to share as much as possible... so even as i wish people would share more, i share as much as they will allow...

hope you had fun tonight too :)

Saturday, September 4, 2010

just keep rolling

yeah, like the bullsugar of my dreams, the music plays in my mind no matter how far away it seems or how little attention is paid in the conscious physical reality (so no one would believe it at times)... fun night playing texas holdem with old friends and my luck was seriously amazing, i gave away half my chips and still wound up way ahead... should have been in vegas...

another long work week done, another ever-too-brief weekend breezing right past with much fun planned... too much, actually, as there's some unplanned overlap due to some divergeance or some friends and i'm torn between invitations... sad when groups of friends start drifting in different directions, especially when it's deliberate... anyway, i'll have fun as i do that, alone in a crowd or wherever i am, always with an open hand out for the one as i just keep rolling along :)

Thursday, September 2, 2010

snotty times

that's the story and for better or worse, i am stuck to it, the mucus is thick and flowing slowly, so the nose is not running, but it is sniff sniff snotty and yeah, grossness for some, but reality for me once again tonight...

and how are you? :}

so asleep

at least i could have been, was , even, for a minute or few, but instead, here i am and there i was ubiquitously, even, and now i lay me down to sleep in my mind, sort of, but not before wishing you a good night because, after all, we could sleep together one day...

maybe even right now :)

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

1500 (don't chew)

yes, this (e)thereal blog has reached 1500 entries, posts, moments to share... and i walked away twice, at least, and was asleep and gone for the night before returning quite impulsively with a deeply rooted sensory memory of how to eat ice cream before this entry was posyed, or an entry, even...

bball with jackson and pollack, pushing the body well, yet so out of shape from the mind's perspective... and still the memory of ice cream calls me home... i woke, turned off the tv, walked toward the bedroom with my phone and water, found myself in the kitched with a spoon of chocolate trinity in my mouth, and here we are making history once again... should have made a milk shake, aye?... ... ... ...

there's still time... ...

but sleep, the body so wants sleep... so there i will go, in a bit :)

first, remember...

teeth don't have taste buds, taste buds don't chew ice cream...

wow, bball

all by myself i went out to the basketball court with my ball and water and shoot i did, again and again and again and... again :)

the bloat got almost scary and the fatigue (so little sleep the past week) was wow... and so i watched warehouse 13 and haven abd smiled at facebook and watched some videos and posted this and now...

sleep? :)

Catch up (and know more)

musical distractions

If people had visible signs or meters that told something about them, what would you want it to tell you?

dumb poll (above), smart responders

all the previous poll votes were somehow erased, so, nevermind... ironically or coincidentally or whatever, the results were very close in practical numbers to the results above shown with just three votes, if you understand the mathematics behind that extrapolative reasoning... i will probably remove the poll at some point... it is a ridiculously useless feature...

SEARCH ME

the thing is, with my tendency to babble and meander and whine and allow distraction to take the lead more often than not, even in this blog that sort of meant to merge brevity with focus like some bloggers do, searching for key words does not always lead to specific information about the subject of that key word... but... here is a start at an easy way to search for key words in this blog... use the search box at the top of the blog to search for words not listed here... if ya wanna, that is... and feel free to suggest words to add to this search shortcut section... click on the words below :)

WORK ... JOB ... MUSIC ... LOVE ... SOFTBALL ... KA ... 42 ... LOL ... LAM ... LAA ... ... ...
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