sleeping tdl (to do list)

one of the to do lists that waits for more time and motivation is this to do list of things i'd like to do but not at the moment (so these things on this to do list are waiting for time and motivation just like the to do list itself, aye?... ummmm, ok)... since this sort of came out of the sleep cycle, the list may seem random and maybe even in need of some organization like as in to do on the web and to to asap and to do around the house and to do soon and to do eventually and to do with others and to do after i do something else that needs to be done before i can do this and so on, but hey, it's a list... 

• search for all the profiles of me on the web (some i didn't even create like 
• search for all the profiles of me that i've created on the web
• find a friend offline who wants to share the search for who we are on the web
• put labels on all of the entries in all of my blogs
• see if the labels make any sense
• consider making sense of the labels if they don't seem to make sense
• edit my writings
• publish my writings
• make enough money to retire
• retire
• clean out the car
• buy a new car
• buy a new house
• fall in love again
• reconnect with old friends
• share uninhibited sex
• remember me
• actualize me
• clean out the boxes in the bedroom closet and bedroom
• unpack the books and find shelving for them
• read more
• get stuff out of ny storage and sort through and so on
• sort through and organized all the music i've got on cds and on the computer
• run more
• exercise more
• remember i have abs
• organize this and other tdls (to do lists)
• create an abbreviation list for reference to all the random abbreviations i create
• include what i intend to mean with the labels on that abbreviation list
• find, update, or recreate my personal dictionary
• share my personal dictionary with close friends so they might understand me when i talk to them
• find time for all this
• find a friend who wants to know me well enough to find time for all this
• continue this and other tdls

so anyway, there's what came from the relatively deep of last night... who knows what might come from relatively deep sleep another night... or even from seriously deep sleep once the arm no longer nags, aye?...

are we having fun yet? :)
 

yeah, another all night long

while a local congress person (who was my congress person until i moved last year and now she is by a few streets) rocks the boat and might give some the impression of mental instability (or is it just bold unabashed shoot-from-the-hip candor?) which would not be surprising given the mentality of the local area, but then, ain't that america (cha cha cha)... yeah, that's why i do it, i mean, that's why i babble on ridiculously leaving you wondering if i have lost my mind or maybe i'm just a an irresponsible jerk or immature goofball or something like that because i want madness on my resume when i run for office... gonna vote for me?...

well, anyway, as i pack away a package of keebler fudge sticks (yes, the whole package) and half a pound of nuts (cashews and pistachios) and the government pours another few billion dollars into the richest pockets in america (the top five of the fortune 500 companies seem to be getting our tax dollars more than anyone... where's our bailout?... is this the fiddling while the country burns?... what's the real, tell me what's a happening), i'll be heading out to work soon cuz i am just responsible like that...

are we having fun yet? :}

strange life times

and if you are interested and do not let me know, what's the point of being interested... if you are afraid we might die tomorrow, why wait to jump into serious sharing?... and if you care and don't ask to know me, do you really care?... and if our conversations never happen, what was the point of smiling in the first place... and if it is my projection of awareness of carelessness with life that keeps the living aware away, then so be it... one who cares enough will find a way to me... so no one is interested today...

oh, you know what i mean, whatever it is...

still, i wander out somewhere most every night, almost, even though i am not planning as much on my calendar as i did for a while last year... but no one initiates the step closer... age, belly, whatever - the brakes come on fast are a few personal details are shared, usually age... everybody's so afraid of dying, no one seems to have the guts to live...

worked until past seven thirty today (after going in before seven on the am side of the dial) even though there was a game night starting at seven (on the pm side of the time keeping mechanism) and so substantial work got done and the evening was fun as well and after the regular game night, four of us drove over to a late night afyer-game game night and more fun was had, even as everyone was falling asleep...

where are the nocturnal people, anyway?...

out at home or something, having fun and so on... most probably oblivious to my existence as i am relatively unaware of theirs, except in my dreams, so keep the faith and hope alive and bring your best to every moment for you never know when someone might come along who might be interested enough to let youn know... and oh the places we may go then...

make it fun :)

tweedle dee

home again with no plan except rest (so maybe a load or laundry or two if i don't pass out first?)... gym?... we shall see... soup for dinner and ponderings... ponderings deeply... to meat or not to meat... see, there's some people in this world i might let influence me from time to time... they have to have the right mix of waves or vibs or whatever, it's really not easily explained, if explaining is even possible... anyway, one of these potential influences just went vegan this week and here i am entering what seems to be a rather nonchalant omnivore phase with cow, pig, and chicken in the freezer... so tonight i eat soup to nuts to crackers, all veggie...

pondering... and drifting... and laughing at myself and life and love and everything, including everything that once mattered so much more than everything else combined to me... wondering just how set in my ways i have become... and what are my ways, anyway... ah, the undefined is the unwanted, the uninvited, the easily overlooked and pushed out the door if one dares to enter the world of the defined...

so how was your day? :)