you are appreciated

life gets busy, i know, i've experienced extremely busy periods in this life before and after the advent of the widespread access to the internet, before and after the advent of widespread access to cellular telephones... in the olden days before the world wide web and cellular telephones instantly connected anyone linked in practically anytime they wanted a connection and anytime to at least leave a message, sometimes years passed without contact between the closest of friends or family across long distances... it was natural communication given the means available...

at one time it took months to send a letter across the oceans and only those with wealth could do so... we moved to advanced message delivery systems like the pony express and mail delivery using ever advancing technology until a written document, a letter from a friend, could be delivered by airmail overnight... electronic technology over the last 150 years advanced from telegraph where instant communication became available to anyone at a telegraph office at a per word fee to telephone where instant communication was available to any two people with a telephone line at a per minute fee to cellular and internet service where instant communication became available to any two or more people with cellular or internet service and a cell phone or computer for a monthly fee... eventually the instant communication might become available to anyone with a communication chip physically implanted in their brain (or right now you can wear it on your wrist as a wristband for those fearing the misuse of bio-tech or neuro-tech and other human enhancement technology and any other potential threats to cognitive liberty, which no one should take lightly, even as we digress rather far from the point of this entry... or do we? ooo-eee-aaaahhh) and a connection to a global communication network that links everyone for little or no fee as communication across the invisible electronic waves becomes as much a human right as breathing the air... science fiction is just science that has yet enter a production phase, after all...

and even at our current level of virtually instant communication, cellphones for calls and texts and voicemail and computers for reading and writing a variety of forms including emails, messages, comments, days, weeks, and even months or longer can go by without making time to communicate over the myriad of means available... sometimes work and/or people in our daily physical life takes precedence over the computer/phone communications... sometimes internal obstacles, emotions, and/or mind-blocks (from feeling worthless to feeling unappreciated to feeling the long distance communications are not real or meaningful for any reason)... sometimes it is something said or read (and i hope if anything i say or write pushes you away, you will let me know because pushing you away is not my intention...

all this to say - thank you... thank you to the few of you who take a few moments to think of me, to read these words, to use the communication systems available - comments, emails, texts, phone services, and so on - to reach out and let me know you are still alive and able to communicate... thank you for the appreciate you give me for the writing i do... thank you for acknowledging and appreciating me... especially thank you during vulnerable or challenging moments when a word from you matters more to me than you may ever know...

and yes, even as i scoff and avoid the whole life-anniversary-birthday concept for logical and illogical reasons that are my own mental games or blocks, thank you for remembering my birthday... every year i am surprised at the feeling that it really does mean something, it really does feel good to matter to you enough for you to know or want to know (asking means as much as remembering because, at least in my mind, intent means as much as successful memory)...

i wrote this entry to let you know that you are appreciated :)