i was gone

left the world behind as song 31 played and here i am again as song 32 begins (referring to the momentary music in my mind if you have not been hop-skipping back and forth through the last dozen entries more or less) and as alexa ray joel said,

there is a place in the night
where i know it will always be right
somewhere that i can just be
really be
but the world doesn't see
all of the words that i'm writing
all of the song brought to light
you better find what i'm hiding
so go ahead and try
before it passes by

if you know what i mean (listen if you don't, listen better if you still don't, let it be if you really don't wanna, but anyway, i was sweetly passed-out in this recliner (jackson put my laptop back here to encourage me to sit here again cuz she knows this is where i am most comfortable typing since i have no office desk/chair set up here at home) where i caught up on the last entry and several (at least) previous entries that were (shhhh, secrets) inserted after the last entry and the sleep was wonderful for an hour or two or so and i turned off the music and headed to bed and then thoughts of another kind rose in my head and here we are again...

the thoughts were about a call for the hob i sent a resume for a few weeks ago... it's the interview cycle time and the voice mail asked me to call back... being that i am so not prepared for a job interview (as in, must buy razor to shave, must unpack and find suits and ties and get one to the cleaners for pressing, should get haircut, should fix car, should get my mind right for a job interview which includes wanting to get back to serious daily responsibility and scheduled routines again, among other essentials) and being groggy from lack of sleep and the cold/flu bug, well, timing was not ideal so i did not call back immediately yesterday afternoon to give myself a good night sleep (best laid plans, right?) and call fresh and ready in the morning... of course too much thinking tonight that will keep me awake will undermine the sleep i intended to get and therein undermine this grand master plan to be at my best clarity and so on, so babble it all out tonight boy and get thee back to sleep soon, m'ok?...

mommy, i wanna hope your hand :)