focus on me

not you, me... i mean, you are irrelevent, that is, to this point, i must focus on me... you can focus on anything you want... and you certainly are welcome and wanted here to share and care... i am merely pointing out to myself in my blog that i must save myself from the path of self-destruction i am on and you are not responsible for any of that, it's not you, it's me... everybody, i mean, which includes you cuz by everybody i mean everybody who does not live inside my head (and nobody does besides me and my shadows and assorted imaginary friends and fiends and this parentheses is silly, but does have a point, even though it might diminish the importance and seriousness of the rest of the entry so stop) which includes everybody... i still love you dearly, especiqally if we've shared anything (and the more shared, the more meaning to the love, ya know)... and most entries will not be so self-focused or selfish, but i must remind myself now and then, the aloneness, focus on me... wait, marilyn wrote something (thanks j), only parts of us touch only parts of others... i am the only one who can focus on all of me and if i do not do it, at least from time to time, especially when necessary to make a change, improve, or remedy some ill, i am neglecting me...

yeah, so do it instead of just calling yourself dummy, ok?...

narf :)