softball futures

not like way in the future, more like next season, or next week, even... so i texed back and forth with jackson about the softball team and my thoughts on my finances (relating to the team, i still have not posed the question about her paying something for living here) and she insists i am the pitcher and did not seem to understand my reasoning (i didn't even mention the seasons i paid for two or three or more shares of the team because people didn't pay) and she went to bed before we found resolution to benching the current pitcher... a softball team that plays a seven game season and no tournaments and does no travelling does not need four pitchers... especially when one plays only pitcher (at the moment, until my arm heals) and two others play only pitcher or first base... at about $7 a game (plus gas, $5+ depending on prices), the cost for sitting on the bench like i did the last two seasons is counter productive... at least the sunday morning league is about $2.50 per game and a little less gas... s softball team with five or more people in the dugout after ten take the field is a few too many... and batting thirteen or fourteen people gives the other team an advantage as facing a pitcher more than once is a big advantage and batting 10 allows that... ah, but that's the technicalities of playing softball to win... playing to have fun means at least playing and for me, for now, financial considerations must be taken into account...

so i feel that for me, it's got to be if i pay, i play... but that sets a negative tone for the team... stillm especially in that expensive league... after two full seasons of paying and not playing at all and with my not having income at the moment, i think that's just the way it's got to be whether it is fair or not... so i told jackson i won't pay and won't pay, but i'll be there to coach like i did the last two seasons when i did pay and if all three pitchers can't make it i'll sub for them... stinks, but that's the situation when a team has too many people... jackson sits herself on the bench more than she plays trying to get everybody in the game... it just doesn't make sense to me when there are so many teams and so many leagues... we practically have enough players to start a second team in this league... so it makes sense to me to just coach since the team has become overloaded with players and pitchers during the two seasons i paid but didn't play...

the sunday afternoon league is a headache because of the amateur kid umpires (and just one per field) anyway... almost every other league is not only cheaper, but has two ASA umpires on the field... so i'll let jackson run the team as she has for the last few seasons and go along with whatever she wants... except the money, i've got to draw the line somewhere with spending...