waiting for the computer

microsoft vista or whatever it is that has slowed this computer (to a standstill) more and more is really annoying... it was never wonderful from the start, but gradually over the couple of years i've had this laptop, the system runs slower and slower, especially mail and more recently, browsing... it's ridiculous that it becomes time for a new computer because the software sucks... in the middle of an email, the software is freezing... one more reason i seldom even opening the email software, no less use email... so i close the software again without responding and wait for the frustration of wasted time to pass and then will attempt email communication again...

meanwhile, life continues to be ever so relaxing in my time away from the working world... i wish the people closest to me would relax as much as i am relaxing (my not working seems to stress others and they don't seem to hear me when i say i am not looking for work... cultural conditioning to fear unemployment and make working for money and having a job so important (like the phrase "what do you do?" is so vague and yet understood to mean "who job to you work at", or even more to the point of what people want to know, "what is your financial worth?" as opposed to wanting to know who you are) so much that it interferes with enjoying life is sad)...

alas, i can't fix others fears or cultural conditioning, so i just enjoy myself (went to a garden party ya know)... leftovers for lunch (a monte christo sandwich with a few fries and onion chips) and a bit later, some house cleaning and laundry and moving some boxes into the storage room outside... jackson will be happy when she gets home since she dislikes clutter (but she spends so much time away she still hasn't actually unpacked and moved in here... she's overextended herself in several ways and is falling behind everywhere, including work, bills, and taking care of herself... hopefully she'll figure out how to change the pattern or let me help before she gets sick)...

and you, how is your life? :)