stuff not to miss

i mean the posts written and uploaded earlier today today (did i repeat myself or was it the yin yang method to the madness of the written gardens if ya know what i mean, i mean, ya falla?)... really, the clarity of consciousness blended with the euphoria of grogginess to create an opening for words and music and memories of times when emo was not just another word and i was sleep-writing and not sleep walking through life... you did have to be there, and some of you were... and if you were not, well, you can catch up on everything if you've got a few weeks to read (drum roll of sorts) the written gardens...

meanwhile, jackson came home and we went to softball practice and only six people showed up including us and the assistant coach so it sucked and i was talked into pitching to two batters (i said i had enough after two) and my arm was done so i didn't get to take any batting practice (feel like i am so often set up to fail with the assistance coach cuz he either forgets or ignores what i need to keep the body performing at it's best)... he will probably not have me pitching tomorrow, which will suck too... on top of nobody showing, there were just two balls brought out so i donated the two i had in my bag, but four balls for a practice is really ridiculously inadequate... if only five players are gonna show up, there is really no point in holding a practice...

they wanted to go out for my birthday after but i wanted to head home and soak my arm and save my appetite for tonight... jackson is going out to shop for a gift for me and some other stuff... i shall block money from my mind on that point... today is not the day to be responsible, after all...

narf :)