first love

for years i knew there was no love like first love and even then, i knew a few first loves and each stand out as unique one of a kind experiences but there's on more unique and profound than any other and that was when i was four years old (she was four years old too, it's not a pervert trauma story) and we explored the full spectrum of sharing in as many ways as four year olds are able (and yes, that includes playing with each other's bodies naked and laying on each other and rubbing and kissing and licking and touching all over) and that imprinted what love is supposed to be like on my brain (including the face) and then about a dozen years later i saw that face again and in spite of being in a very loving relationship for over a year, i completely fell uncontrollably in love with every bit of my being (including wanting to, which is the key, but that's a secret few truly understand) and today is her birthday... not the first one, but the second one... so happy birthday amy...

i'll tell you about all the other loves another time :)

the first time i was too young to understand
and the world does not allow children to love enough
so a broken heart was what i learned could come from love
but that just set me on finding true love again

and second time we were almost ready to fly
but parents still had control of our lives
whatever it was or became for you
the love was true
the love is true

so my heart wishes you all the love you wanted
and i hope the depth you've found in love is enough
wherever you are and whatever you do
i wish for you
the love is true

and i hope you have someone who would do anything for you
and love this true
for love is true

happy birthday amy :)