seriously?

what?... a serious look at where i am? (thinking life, not space)... well, at least on the surface... i am going through slow changes, some very much wanted, some reluctantly accepted, some being resisted subconsciously... while i will leave out some cuz i am not into meticulously clarity at the moment, wanted and happening: move... wanted and will be reluctantly accepted but not happening yet: new job... reluctantly accepted: giving up on humans and their self-destructive ways... resisting subconsciously: changing exercise habits, returning to the normal working life, separating from humans again, compromising to not be so alone...

there are other things i will sort through eventually, probably a lot, but those appear to be the most important at the moment... i think i just limited the list to those kind of changes psych-people call major, potentially traumatic, life changes, signs and triggers for major psych changes, so watch out for depression suicide and psychotic breaks, or so the road signs on the psychobabble road would say?... especially when isolated from society and lacking in intimate relationships, ya know?...

so it's probably wise that i shared this here, especially since i have no one to trust with discussing life in this world these days and have always been intellectually quite isolated and alienated and all that, but what matters is that i must remember how i survived alone all these years in order to continue making these major life changes that are necessary to survival, more now than ever before since the body does not have much more recovery time, space, or energy left (which refers mostly to the changing exercise habits and other resisting subconsciously stuff, i suppose)...

and today i must continue packing so the movers have the most possible stuff to move in the shortest possible time so i save money and move less myself... and that's life around here for now, for what it's worth... seriously :)

see, not every entry is meaningless babble... some are meaningless seriousness :)

hope your day is as insightful and productive :)