in the wee hours

this is when i miss the music the most... and the dream of the soulmate who shares the love of music and words and fun and games and caring and sharing and being in love as much as i do... like the way i do, aye mel... wishing you were somehow here again, whomever you are... come out, come out...

meanwhile, back in thereal... i've been playing lots of softball, winning and losing and getting better all the time (3 for 3 tonight, 11 for 12 with 2 walks for the week)... playing monday, tuesday, and thursday nights and sunday afternoons at the moment... and i've been working a lot, every month adding more work to the workload and making slow progress in changing the dysfunction of the system (the hippie fights the establishment from within, aye?)... not doing as much in the social or show going out stuff (as the calendar shows) and still personally intimately and creatively lonely, but loving the softball and even still enjoying the work, so it's all about the fun fun fun until the right one comes along (the beach boys meet art garfunkle meet the stones {cuz they couldn't drag me away}, or something like that)...

but where have you been?...

who me?... well, besides doing all that stuff, almost all my home time has been spent playing the video game diet... that is, i let my gaming addiction take over and replace my food addiction and viola (or violin, voila?... yeah, ok), i finally knocked off a lot of the weight i put on living with humans who eat like normal americans so i have eaten out only a few times in the past few months and have eaten a lot of lean protein and veggies and fruit and healthy fooods and low fat and low carbs and no sugars or chocolates and so on and i dropped 40 pounds (but gained back 10 this week cuz i binged and as if to mock me, the game broke, but it's not a serious relapse and i expect to drop another 20 pounds in the next month or two and yes, who knew)...

so what else is new?...

lots, but that's enough for this entry in the wee hours... if i get the game fixed i might disappear again, so i won't pretend i am back (even though two new blogs started this week... yes, you read right) and more than a dozen or so new entries popped out just in the last few hours (as if the brain never stopped writing, aye?)... can you imagine if there was actually some up close and personal inspiration in my life?... shhhh, let's not scare the grown-ups... so life goes on and i hope you are enjoying yours as much as i am enjoying mine, even if you're not getting everything you want at the moment... even if you've been gone (you're not forgotten)... even if you were never here...

live, laugh, love, and... dance! :)