sleep deprivation flashbacks

been some time since i push this body to be more than 40 consecutive hours awake and i am flashing back to the times when this was so natural and tripping without external drugs (because sleep deprivation produces some kick ass drugs in the brain, on but my heart, anita, but my heart) so that is where the brain is at the moment and where did the dip and chips and mac and cheese go oh there it is with belly bloated and yet without caffeine or sugar so maybe a little more healthy than when this body was younger and yet the adrenaline and other chemicals pour into the brain and wire the senses and some alas arrises as there is no one here to share it and so the weekend are getting lonelier than ever as i settle into this unemployed life and jackson spends the weekends away fromf friday morning until monday night but she has been working so much that she has seldom been home more than an ahour a night, so the difference is no one says nite nite to me each night anymore and i don't get human contact every day anymore and we never hugged much anyway but it is the unemployment that most isolates and changes the daily contact and jackson being gone is just bad timing but mac 'n cheese and chips 'n dip help the senses feel better and here we are doing what works for me, babbling on...

free association, no less...

narf :)