part nine (sorta)

and is that why there is such loneliness as if i forgot how much sharing means and caring means and partnering means because i had someone to take care of living with me (have we heard this song before?... we should re-read the past and the move into a solo life some seven years ago may be one place to start) and the potential likely possibility of impending loss of the distraction that caring for someone living with me is bringing on this relatively panicked state of loneliness (like a good scout, be prepared) so when it does happen it will not be the shock awakening it could be if i avoided it until it actually happened so all this babbling may have a coherent point and important value after all if i do not distract from it so much it is lost in the words that flow out of the head as elementary as elementary is complex to the average mind or perhaps it is not and i am simply on a different wavelength due to egocentric delusion which prevents me from joining the communal collective delusion that the majority of humanity seems to choose even as it kills them with lies, hypocrisy, fear, and hate...

and nine is not the number one, but significant to john lennon and his songs are significant to me...

narf :)