lonely energy

maybe it is the loneliness that rises after midnight that wakes me from the slumber that calls in the evenings but whatever it is, here we are again... wide awake at 4am listening to kelly clarkson and a few others try to relate to the feelings i feel and maybe even lift the spirit and energy (if only we were not so alone tonight, it would be easier to feel alright, if only someone was within line of sight, it would be easier to less less lonely... tonight) but the haunting comes around from the lost and found in the middle of the night like this one two three can you hear me? won't somebody tell me everything is alright (and make me believe i can wake up again yeah yeah yeah) all i ever wanted was to hold a hand of someone who could really understand me and never let me go because we wanted to share everything all the time everywhere...

believe?...

is that too much so ask, is that too hard a task, here we are again, wide awake at 4am, wanting something more, is anyone there, understanding me, really? who believes as i believe, who feels the way i feel, who will not let this world dictate what is right or wrong... can anyone be so far out there on the edge of reason?...

so much left unsaid... i hope to share it all before i'd dead... so much in my head... i hope to share it all before i'm dead...

and sigh into narf :)