the sad joke (is it irony?) is nobody even notices even when i put it out there... the highs and lows, the strengths and weaknesses, i upload words and hope... and hope... and hope... and nothing ever comes... for no one ever notices...
even incomplete, it always seems to be the same conclusion (prophesy or dream), i just keep hoping and dreaming and until the dream comes true, i keep reaching out while i let distraction from the challenges of life (what?) keep me semi-sane, still hoping someone might understand the fading optimism i am trying to save (at least for the moment) and be the one to save me from myself (or something like that)...
and in another mood, i still want to believe i might be found, even if it's out of the blue... i need no heart of gold, just a heart that's true...
Sunday, November 8, 2015
incomplete begging
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musical distractions
If people had visible signs or meters that told something about them, what would you want it to tell you?
dumb poll (above), smart responders
all the previous poll votes were somehow erased, so, nevermind... ironically or coincidentally or whatever, the results were very close in practical numbers to the results above shown with just three votes, if you understand the mathematics behind that extrapolative reasoning... i will probably remove the poll at some point... it is a ridiculously useless feature...
SEARCH ME
the thing is, with my tendency to babble and meander and whine and allow distraction to take the lead more often than not, even in this blog that sort of meant to merge brevity with focus like some bloggers do, searching for key words does not always lead to specific information about the subject of that key word... but... here is a start at an easy way to search for key words in this blog... use the search box at the top of the blog to search for words not listed here... if ya wanna, that is... and feel free to suggest words to add to this search shortcut section... click on the words below :)
WORK ... JOB ... MUSIC ... LOVE ... SOFTBALL ... KA ... 42 ... LOL ... LAM ... LAA ... ... ... ...
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