modern medicine

i will be taking the body to two doctors for first visit interviews in the next seven days and hopefully one of the doctors will convince me to trust him (both happen to be male though that is not why they were chosen, both are compromises as reading through hundreds of doctor's profiles have not impressed me enough to even want to go see a doctor for the basic check ups this past year... but it is time for the check ups and i need a doctor to order the tests, so i shall attempt trusting a doctor and the medical science once again... my biggest issue with trusting modern medicine is i've worked in health care since i was a teenager and it is not the caring compassionate life saving experience it should be... it is a business, quite cutthroat, and an industry... medical science is mostly about manufacturing and selling product from drugs to equipment to machines... that is not to say there is no value in the drugs or equipment or machines, but i know first hand, second hand, and in too many ways that the priority is the budget, like most aspects of our world from religion to breakfast cereal, it's all about the money... increasing revenue... it is done by minimizing insurance risks, reducing time spent with each patient, and selling product... we are heading for online computerize diagnoses and treatment, warehousing the old, and assembly line medicine... have i started ranting yet?)...

so anyway, i will be taking this body to two doctors in the next seven days... the primary reason is blood pressure which i can no longer control through red yeast rice, garlic, and diet (though dropping weight will hopefully help)... i need a compromise i can live with, literally, and i am hoping one of the two will provide one... if not, i will keep looking...

the primary concern is blood pressure (peaking at 215/110, which is why i am finally getting back to a doctor and will seriously consider medication)... i really do not want to start medication until i am under 180 pounds and running again to see what my baseline blood pressure is when i am at a more ideal weight and in much better shape because the blood pressure medications create a dependancy and increase blood pressure if dosages are not maintained or increase, which has happened to me... my blood pressure was never more than 140/90 until i went on blood pressure medication... it actually went up on the medication and since stopping, well, it's scary high... the risk of exploding and dying while trying to get in better shape is the risk i will discuss with the doctors...

life, can't live without it... narf, ya know?