sugar carbs more

i am definitely enjoying a bit of sugar... more so soon?, and i mean sharing here, writing, hopeing readers will read, hoping the one will find something that will inspire her to be more beautiful and also want to meet me)... chocolate ice, to be precise, when i am not completely focused on live, that is... ... oh year, can i have a glass every night like wine?... i don't want the wine, give me the chocolate ice... even though it gives me liver, sinus, and occasionally brain freeze... i almost always stop before the brain because the liver (or organ somewhere close to the liver) reacts first and fiercely and the pain paises the pleasure of slurping up the chocolate ice... i'd like to chat with zelda about her dad and her life just to experience the energy... who knows, she might have been the one once, everybody is somebody's the one... we are all depressed at times, and most are manic at times, so we are all some form of bipolar, we just control and mask and hide and integrate it into our daily lives (and others) differently... some do it more seamlessly than others and you'd never know unless they did something rash... the whole thing amuses me, when it doesn't inspire me to want to cry... if i had more carbs i would consume them... that's the risk of opening the door to that brain high again... so addictive... so sweet (get it?)...

what?... i will miss craig ferguson too... yeah, but pass it along, m'ok?)...

narf :)