Monday, December 1, 2014

maybe it's the first of december

the saddest day of the year on my personal calendar... so maybe that's why i felt like death was nearby earlier today... imagination or sensory reality?... who knows?... cares?... is everything illusion?... feels so real... maybe it really is because i feel things... is empathy real?... i always thought so... so maybe the chest pains were my sensing happiness having heart murmur distress today and jackson having an anxiety attack... psychic long distance empathy is a better explanation than a mini-heart attack, right?... carefree casual irreverence to the last drop, obviously?... ah, but alas and sigh (maybe even some alack), today is the anniversary of the saddest moments known in this life... such sadness that was immortalized in obscure rhymes sent through the mail all those years ago (whatever did she do with them, only she knows, if she even remembers) and still more rhymes in dreams and laments buried in storage for decades and even more lost on servers (likely erased by the giant corporations that blocked my access suddenly because they did not want to maintain their personal website spaces), all so sad as well, but not as sad as the girl at the window in the freezing rain... so long ago, and the pain still burns deeper than imagination... i wonder if it can be seen...

end of the innocence

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dumb poll (above), smart responders

all the previous poll votes were somehow erased, so, nevermind... ironically or coincidentally or whatever, the results were very close in practical numbers to the results above shown with just three votes, if you understand the mathematics behind that extrapolative reasoning... i will probably remove the poll at some point... it is a ridiculously useless feature...

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the thing is, with my tendency to babble and meander and whine and allow distraction to take the lead more often than not, even in this blog that sort of meant to merge brevity with focus like some bloggers do, searching for key words does not always lead to specific information about the subject of that key word... but... here is a start at an easy way to search for key words in this blog... use the search box at the top of the blog to search for words not listed here... if ya wanna, that is... and feel free to suggest words to add to this search shortcut section... click on the words below :)

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