i want junk food

i may be starting to actually understand how cubs fans feel but there is no way i actually could understand how cubs fans feel and i really don't think i want to because at this moment i really don't want to feel more pain than i am feeling and maybe not wanting to feel any more pain than i am feeling is a slightly tiny slice of proof that i might slightly have some slight idea of how cubs fans feel even though there is most likely no logical way i really actually could understand how cubs fans feel because this really sucks and the top of the first inning is not even over yet but there must be some amazingly hopeless hopeful sense of hope in cubs fans and i've always been the most hopelessly hopeful person i've ever known (see previous entry, perhaps) so maybe the one is a vubs fan (and it is so very wrong to be laughing right now as the young players on the cubs simply self-destruct like i've never seen a team self-destruct before and i so hope they bust out of it before this game is over and if they don't i so hope they can leave this series behind and rediscover the innocent hopefulness and confidence they had (that may have simply burned out} as they dominated the two teams in baseball with best records in baseball this year just to get to this point to be one of the four teams left still alive with a chance to win it all) cuz there's always hope (right?)...

gotta believe is an ironically bipolar feeling at the moment...

narf :}