comfort food ahead

so ok so i got up so i'm giving in so i am making cheese and mac so i will have comfort food so i don't stay up too late cuz if i wait until the game is over to cook i will eat way too late and the caffeine i drank during the day will be triggered by the carbs and i don't want to get no sleep tonight even though i would like to keep this babbling going for another few dozen entries or hundreds, even, but the no sleep night would not be wise as this body is not going to be able to withstand the ridiculous diet and sleeplessness forever as it has throughout this life so i am cooking the comfort food now and will eat before the game is over and win or lose hope to fall asleep not long after that cuz that is the healthy thing to do even though eating cheese and mac this late before bedtime is not at all a healthy thing to do but sometimes life needs comfort food more than longevity especially without the one who is probably the only one who would keep me from eating comfort food tonight by giving me an alternative oral pleasure that would bring wieght down to optimal levels and probably bring back a fitness level this body has not seen in many many years and by all modern medical predictive standards prolong the life for many years to come but in her absence i will enjoy my comfort food and shorter life and continue hoping she will come along cuz that's what hopelessly hopeful beings do, don't cha know...

wish i had some seriously cream filled heavily chocolate iced cupcakes too...

narf :}