how do you read me?

when you read this, do you laugh?... do you feel sad?... do you feel anything?... i'd really like to know so i take the time to ask, cuz the words linked in the two links i just asked about can be read in many different ways... some may find humor, some may find sorrow, some may find insight, some may find ignorance, some may find peace, some may find distress, some may find some praise, some may find pity, some might find offense, even... what do you find?... what do you feel?... i wish i knew...

the caloric intake reduction refocused again the past two days, in case you wondered and are paying attention... i still recommend (and request, even) clicking on the links in this entry (yes, dammit, i will repeat myself again and i will keep repeating myself until i find what i am looking for because it is the best i can do sometimes and stopping or doing nothing or going silent has never worked)... and while you are caring to spend a little time here, more of me can be found in the links in this entry (of course the more right i think i am, the more wrong i can be, but i still believe i would like you to know me better... seriously, my humor only tries to make the emotion less overwhelming (or something like that)... oh, if you only knew (if you only wanted to, you could, reahlly you could) cuz the truth remains the truth, really, the truth remains the truth (and i still ain't too proud to beg, even if it is not socially acceptable in our ever so pretentious superficial fear-driven culture), ya know?...

and still i wonder if you get it...

narf :)