busy monkey

i don't get the draw of the blood and gore but sci-fi still tickles my senses, or fancy, the imagination stimulates sensation and without defences it's chancey, but if you can trust your mind then you must explore the vast unknown of infinite possibilities (or the infinite possibilities of the vast unknown, and by vast, we mean infinite, at least) and if you remember where you were or what you were discussing (or thinking, if you weren't talking), then you might understand the secrets of everything within and beyond life, the universes, and you know what... or something like that...

work work work, as too usual lately, is absorbing most of my time... in the hours that i am not working (or on the phone with work), i am often playing softball and still not enough to actually satisfy my desire to play softball (but it's not a game you can play, or even practice, without others and others are busy too so getting together daily to play or practice is very challenging... and for reasons buried deep in my psyche (loneliness and laziness, mostly), i've found no motivation for solitary exercise in quite some time... i have considered buying an elliptical for home, but i wonder if the ease of availability would increase the exercise or if the end of the world as we know it has already arrived and blah blah blah, you know? (if you do, well feel free to explain it to me)... several birthday dinners happen in aprils so there is more reason to miss sleep, and then there is babbling, which is the method to the madness and keeps the madhouse in my head from spilling into the real world which would further interfere with any successes as i am not in the almost anything goes world of the creative arts but rather have expectations much closer to what is collectively viewed as normalcy by the vast majority of the populace in this culture at this time... yeah, i'm a busy monkey...

meanwhile, for no apparent reason except that i was thinking about it as i started this entry that may or may not have any cohesive connection with meaningful thought or anything worth your time, the current and coming distractions include the expanse childhood ends helix 12 monkeys lost girl and defiance on the syfy channel

narf :)