are we amused?

there is something way too awkward about a comedian laughing at himself after everyone stops laughing, even more when no one is laughing... i mean, it's great to enjoy yourself and have a good time, but when trying to be funny to amuse others, i don't think amusing yourself is enough... the awkward laughter of insecurity on stage is seldom funny... awkward, however, can be funny... just ask woody allen or chevy chase fans... or even jack benny fans... or stephen wright fans, obviously... even when it's stupid, as long as there is a modicum of creativity, it can be amusing and fun... of course humor is in the eye of the beholder, or ear, perhaps... but if you are curious about what this entry is actually about (since it is a purpose to this blog which is something about sharing (e)thereal life {sharing the real life electronically, electronic real life, the real, electronic edition, get it?} so did you think i was laughing at my own attempts to amuse you?... oh come on, humor me... humor me, get it?)... what?...

brighthouse is still fucking up my night, by the way...

barf :}