whatdya mean, oh?

oh?... such an all purpose and often odd word, oh really... i started feeling the wonkiness a while back today and was definitely feeling hunger and fatigue and drained and more tired than i should have been cuz of the energy-sucking puppy (he may have a uri, did i mention, but he also gets so energy-suckingly needy when jackson is away and i am ready to crash but i have a softball game to go to now and must be alert cuz i can get hurt if i am not alert so next week i definitely nap or wake up later than 5am on wednesdays (and fridays too cuz i have two games friday nights) and happiness will just have to adjust to my schedule and with the arm in recovery and the ankle still not at full strength and the body aging more than i want it to i must focus on getting the rest i need when i need it even if it means being a little selfish cuz i don't have anybody ready to take care of me (and the bills) if i get too hurt and i will be very very sad if i can't play ball because i do not rest enough or take care of myself as well as i should and could so reiterate it dangit, focus and save some energy for the body...

i still love everything i love and you too... just need to balance better :}