xmas, quick version

most of the xmas holiday is party with friends times... i only went to two this year (not including next weekend for new years parties) and it was great to see old friends and catch up with some favorite people i have not seen in a long time and also fun to meet new friends... not having an intimate partner or any close family, the holiday sharings are not laden with gift giving or cuddling much... great food, fun games, stimulating profound intellectual discussions, but no physical intimacy...

at home though, it's lonely...

jackson, who is my best friend and closes person in daily life (in case this is your first time here... or just don't pay attention much), has family out of town and a new relationship to nurture this year, so she was out of town since saturday (though happiness was here needing attention and energy, but a dog is a dog even when he's a great dog) and only home for a couple of hours today to throw in some laundry (must remember to finish it for her) and grab a snack and shower and change... we exchanged gifts and hugged and she headed out to spend tonight with her new love... they seem good together so i am happy, but it does point out to me that i have no one who puts me first on holidays or more importantly, in daily life... and while i enjoy being alone (so no complaints, just some desire for more sharing), it feels lonely at times...

i have beatles pajamas now :)

how's that for a segue?... and sleep, i want sleep... i hardly slept last night cuz i've been up all night the past few nights and today i didn't sleep all day cuz jackson was coming home so now i am reading to nod off... history channel has some drama (not fiction, but docudrama... they really overdo it reaching for scare-tactics and drama like the news and everything else) about evolution and the search for the missing link, so that seems fine for nodding off background sounds... maybe i will evolve, or de-evolve...

hope you are enjoying a relaxing day too :)