lumpy bed

yeah, ya see, i went back to sleep, but it does not help that the bed is quite lumpy... oh, i didn't mention that earlier?... laundry, towels, sleets in a bunch, and the plastic still on the mattress... all that will change next month when we move, but it is a deliberate (unplanned) undermining of sleep and continued evidence of the self-destructive patterns, habits, and behaviors that have destroyed me for oh these many years as i finally forgot the face of my father (as if i ever had one) and became human... being human, self-destruction is the way... superstition too, though i don't give much cred to that... is there anybody going to listen to my story? la la la...

narf :}