am i begging too much?

seriously now, this entry is meant for you if you know me offline, or want to... and i link it here hoping you will read it (no, really?) and this entry kind of expands or dilutes it, but now we are in another entry so nevermind, except that you can go back if you want to know me offline...

scary, huh?...

oh pathos, seriously (again?... twice in on entry?), is it obvious that i am begging for someone to come along and take me seriously in the physical world?... am i?... i mean, is it obviously that i am appearing to or am i actually begging?... can you tell the difference in the words or ascertain the true actuality of reality of the physical experience beyond the babble or is it all just too irreverently teasing to be sure?...

i would love to share more in every way possible, yeah, but then, i don't do much about it do it?... i mean, sending these few words out to the ethers of cyberspace is not exactly putting up a billboard on main street or even wearing a t-shirt with the word available on it, is it?... perhaps i am not as available as i think i want to be?... oh, it's so confusing, isn't it?...

seriously, who needs to be held accountable, anyway? lol lam laa :)

being held would be enough :)