Monday, December 24, 2012

finally awake, sort of

not really awake as in enlightened or clarity of mind, but awake in the sense of moving around... shower, dog, dress, dog, and head out to shop and find the party (forgot the address, call ahead, wrong number, call someone else, run around in circles, car: please don't overheat)...

yeah, so part of me really wants to sleep and part of me really wants to stay home and write (as if there is so much value in this mindless babbling for anyone but me, or even me) and part of me wants to fly away somewhere and part of me wants to sigh... part of me wants to throw a pity party cuz i have no partner in life anymore and while i am comfortably independent and happy alone, i miss sharing intimacy and partnering in sharing life and i miss someone who cares enough about me to make me #2 (second to themselves) in their life... and so what?... fatigue from lack of consistent sleep influences everything today, so clarity is cloudy and who cares?...

ah, but still heading out to the party cuz that's the best i can do for the moment... i hope you choose to do what is best for you too :)

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musical distractions

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dumb poll (above), smart responders

all the previous poll votes were somehow erased, so, nevermind... ironically or coincidentally or whatever, the results were very close in practical numbers to the results above shown with just three votes, if you understand the mathematics behind that extrapolative reasoning... i will probably remove the poll at some point... it is a ridiculously useless feature...

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the thing is, with my tendency to babble and meander and whine and allow distraction to take the lead more often than not, even in this blog that sort of meant to merge brevity with focus like some bloggers do, searching for key words does not always lead to specific information about the subject of that key word... but... here is a start at an easy way to search for key words in this blog... use the search box at the top of the blog to search for words not listed here... if ya wanna, that is... and feel free to suggest words to add to this search shortcut section... click on the words below :)

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