sometimes happiness does not feel good

now philosophically i could be referring to many things, like other people's happiness can sometimes inspire jealousy or envy or deeper (more honest) feelings of loneliness that lead to insecurity and awkwardness and even feelings of inadequacy and low self-esteem which seldom feels good, but instead i refer to happiness the dog and he definitely does not feel too good this morning... he was waiting for me and woke me as the sun rose as i mentioned earlier and after a walk and pee and poop, kinda light and loose on both, he ate (gobbled, as usual) his food so fast that i think he has a tummy ache... he started whimpering and grabbed his toy to run around, but not to play... he just went into jackson's room and whimpered... so we went out for a much longer walk and just got back... he ran a bit, obviously needing exercise, probably partly to aid digestion... he drooled much more than usual (for a cool morning especially) and tried to pee much more than usual (completely dry) and truly did not want to come back inside even after 45 minutes... but i wanted him to drink and drink he did, half a bowl of water... so all signs point to tummy ache...

probably ate too much... and maybe a tiny piece of pizza crust or something else he licked up from the carpet last night... maybe some pepto bismol... he's in and outfrom the porch to the living room now... lays down and tries to nap, then turns and looks at me... poor old puppy, that's what you get for being an insatiable food hound... i say it's his diet... hill's prescription with absolutely no meat is just not right for a pure carvivore... there he goes looking at me with his sad eyes again... he's usually clear happy eyes and smiling big... sigh, maybe cuddling on the couch will help... it usually does... i'll be back with more mundane details of the live half lived later (with even more snarky self-mockery too)... in the meantime, don't miss these
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and i dare you to exercise until you shine today :)