yeah, sure, whatever

the moment i stopped typing, happiness sat up and looked at me like he lost his best friend and he sat up and started scratching and then started nipping at his legs which is what he does when he is stressed and what can we expect from an animal so used to curling up on his human's bed and sleeping with human contact... curious does not stress as much and she comes to sleep next to me as she is doing right now... but curious has not lived and slept one on one with her humans for the last fourteen years as happiness has... he can't jump up on jackson's bed anymore, so she lifts him on there so he can curly up at her feel... he used to curl up against her and she misses that, but i think his old bones need less body heat and more space now... he gets up so slowly and aches for the first few to dozen steps...

yeah, so some nights i just don't fall back to sleep instantly... especially not when i hear his panting or thumping foot scratching or his nipping at his legs... if i am not awake to stop that he will draw blood as he does sometimes when he is stressed... poor puppy, he just does not understand why his mommy is not lifting him up on her bed and curling up to sleep tonight...

meanwhile, i sit here babbling cuz when i tried laying down in my bed he and curious just came in asking me, "how can you sleep when mommy is missing?"... he starts panting (with the occasional pathetic whimper, moan, or grumt) and she starts rubbing on my face (with the occasional meow)... jackson tells me to close my door but how cruel is that, i mean, from the kid's perspective... yeah, they eventually falls asleep, i think, but sometimes they throw up right outside my door (i don't like to leave it for jackson and usually don't tell her cuz, well, what's the point... i whine and grump here, after all... it does no good to carry it around and hold on to it for days until she gets home) and the energy is so uncomfortable in the morning, it starts the day off rotten, especially when i must rush through a shower and leave for work... alas, i know, humans do not understand me... some infants do... and animals... and some kids before they unlearn...

food?...