sleep calls, symbolically

symbolically... really?... is that how it is spelled?... and why focus on spelling when meaning is all that really matters?... perhaps because there are many so superficial that they are blind to meaning if spelling (or some other packaging) is not following current accepted standards and practices... conformity is a bitch, so to speak... or write... or not, be that as it may be or not to be, whatever the question... in any case, in other words, the mind rambles on aimlessly through myriads of mazes formed by formats and structures that remain as arbitrary as the sights we can or cannot see in the skies above and what we cannot see is so often the more powerful sight, be it illusion, delusion, confusion, or refusal to accept or not accept what is or is not...

some things may be beyond our comprehension, by choice or voice or just because it is... and happiness comes out to the living room to sleep on his bed as i come out of the shower to type here instead of heading to my bed even as sleep calls loudly and royally, and he wants pizza crust, naturally, but he might also sense jackson is not feeling well and not sleeping well even though she says she is and curious remains out here with me as well further emphasizing the sense i feel that the energy is not right in jackson's world and i postulate it may be the drugs, the long term caffeine and coffee and sugar addictions couple with some prescribed medications that interfere with REM sleep and an overdose of long term stress and fear finally nudging her brain into an overload that might result in a collapse or breakdown, poor baby...

of course i could be wrong, but the kids are hanging with me tonight... and when i head to bed, which i should very shortly, we shall see how the puppy and kitty react... happiness went to jackson during my shower but ame back out when i came back out and fell fast asleep out here in the few moments i sat to type these words and curious is laying on her little catnip pad (we need to buy her a bed, we being me) nodding off as well and me, i really ought to be sleeping (as it has been for more than fifteen years in these online blogs if you recall, as elp sang, from the beginning), or something like that...

be an angel and turn out the light, won't you?...

nite nite :)