the week it is

ok, the simple things reminds me of why this particular week is one of, if not my least favorite week of the year... the hypocrisy of this country shows through more cruelly this week than any other, though some war celebrating holidays are close... the fact that slavery is seen as a bad thing and there have been laws to make strides to balance the hundreds of years of oppression does not alter the fact that the white europeans committed the most complete genocide of a human species in known history... the germans could not completely eradicate the jews... the white men could not completely subjugate the africans... the australians and the aboriginal tribes, well, sad... but the so-called "americans" and the so called "american indians" have a history so deeply buried in folk lore, hollywood distortions, governmental lies, and cultural ignorance that the story of thanksgiving nauseates me every year and that seems to increase as the years pass...

so the week feels like crap because i feel the inhumanity and hypocrisy of it everywhere turned up on high... and that just reminds me of how arrogant this country remains, justifying invasions of other countries, justifying killing of women and children many thousands of miles away, justifying stealing natural resources, and the rub, celebrating victories and basking in the soils of the wars we start with people who have no chance against us... the epitome of the bully, that is the u.s.a and this week brings it all back home to me...

so i usually do my best to spend time alone because rarely do i find someone who understands the perspective i find in my mind...

and why should this night be any different, blah blah blah...