into the night

song queue, if anybody gets it... a toronto tape might be a clue... maybe nobody will every find that clue, but it existed once so it's essence is out there somewhere... no matter can be created or destroyed, after all... or is that energy?... or is that just old science?... anyway, just getting home from work... yes, the work day started some 19 hours ago... or 20, perhaps... and i did have appointments scheduled for five hours from now, but rescheduled the morning i already did before i left... and took care of a dozen other tasks after the night shift thanksgiving party which was as expected, the night shift being the night shift, after all... for better or worse, most night shift workers have similar traits... having worked night shift on the floor like my people do, i know some things...

still, a whole lot of thank yous and a whole lot of deflections to the managers who did an amazing job of food preparation, set up, presentation, (in a catering sense), and clean up... i am proud of the three managers who worked very hard yesterday and today to put this together and also of the supervisors who pitched in to help... there is much hope for cooperation and improvement in an already very good crew...

and this is the uppers mentioned in an entry somewhere along the way today... three cans of mountain dew helped too... yes, the downers involved drugs (and biometrics and softball) and so did the uppers (and work success and softball... hey, i love to play even when the team is frustrating... see previous entries for details, i think)... and then, the turnarounds... this is the balance... i always turn around to see where i've ben so i can learn from it... from the downers i learn how downers effect my acceft and behavior and i figure out ways to redirect my energy and focus into more positivity and change for the better... the uppers tell me what works to get me up, even if what works is supposed to be bad for the body...

so i was depressed over the poor medical tests and i was (and am) euphoric about the sensory pleasures of food and drink and drugs and sharing positivity and good times with co-workers... and it was quite an up, down, turnaround day (all 20+ hours of it... and surely i ought to be sleeping, but the mountain dew has me slightly wired and thirsty for more and the world still spins around and i feel a whole lot better with chocolate and mountain do than i do trying to do what the medical profession wants me to do so...

into the night i wander...

coming? :)