uppers, downers, and turnarounders (drugs too)

yes, drugs too... so today was, well, sometimes the music just stinks, but face even the stinkiest music we must... or at least, i must... as in me... as in my stinkiest music... though today might not be my stinkiest music as perhaps a few dear sweet children in new york, toronto, california, and other places (even some unknown, perhaps) might testify (no, enough courtroom drama for one month, m'ok?), it was as stinky as the personal physical me-life gets as i faced the stuff about this body i have been ignoring while simultaneously facing the stuff about the medical profession i hate most (even though it's been my career) and suck it did, majorly...

so some parts of today really sucked (might be over-using that technical term, but harry would understand) and then again, some parts of the day i loved much more than most days... the suckage contained facing that recently eluded to music, the body and the medical stats... the bmi put me in the obese category... anyone visiting my facebook page can see i sometimes have a belly, but obese?... the medical industry is really sad because it uses stats like the ridiculously skewed bmi chart to deny people health insurance and charge more in premiums... anyway, i was 205 today... i've been 220+... i've been under 180... when i was under 180 people thought i was seriously ill... though i think i should be in the 180s, that still would be way overweight for the bmi for the height they measure squishinh the head piece of the height scale down to take away an inch... so i shrunk an inch in this measurement done by an insurance company who loses money if people score well on their stats... of course they cheat, it's business... it's not personal, it's business... and may they find a horse's head in their bed tonight...

meanwhile, i foolishly ate lunch just before doing my biometrics and my glucose was 144... the cut off was 140 so coincidence or cheating or not, i fail that discount as well... i was stupid, yes... other people fasted and i intended to fast but i attented an accounting seminar with the VP, CFO, CEO from my company and other companies and they served breakfast and lunch... i broke down and had some lunch... idjit... cost me $25 a month for the next year... a $300 plate of ok thenksgiving food and i don't even like thanksgiving food, but i must have given into the peer pressure of the brass... i suck, they suck, but most of all, the medical industry and insurance industry sucks...

and then there was cholesterol... i should have passed cholesterol since 200 was the cut off, but they said "but... your good cholesterol is low"... yeah, so?... my cholesterol is under 200, why add another criteria to the $25 a month discount?... oh, because it's a scam and you will do anything, lie cheat, kill first borns, to deny discounts like you deny claims (or used to before you lost the pre-existing condition loophole?) huh huh huh?... yeah, we know, crooks every one of them... coincidentally, they did not tell me what discounts i qualified for when i "checked out" of their little game (rigged for the house, and not my house, of course) of chance... i was in the middle of my very busy workday and of course that influenced the numbers...

did i mention my blood pressure was astonomical according to their machines which re-calibrated four times on a wobbly table that was being bumped by others during my check (a sneaky way of raising the outcome of a bo check any insurance nurse would know) so it was way higher than when i was re-checked in my office by a nurse using a cuff and stethescope... i was not a happy camper and not a pleasant patient, partly because of the condition of this body according to the norms of modern medicine, but more because i know the scam and let myself get played by signing up for it... so maybe i get $50 a month discount on my premiums, which are just over $100 a month (with the company paying almost $500 a month... it is good to be working), but at least i know i get a $25 discount for not smoking... though i might not say no to a joint right now even though i do not live in an intelligent state (the likelihood of that happening in my current circles is almost nil, so close to nil, i fart in it's general direction)...

all that and i consumed more than a dozen garlic tablets (that are not odorless) and six or eight or more calms forte (the downers i mentioned a long time ago in the title of this entry), which did nothing for my blood pressure but definitely slowed my metabolish and brain down... and after the insurance medical industry biometric check-up fiasco, i went to the house thenksgiving party (yes, two thanksgiving parties thrown by the company also having insurance health discount tests done on the same day... pretty slick business people, aren't they?)... and when i finally sat down at my desk to do some actual work, it was close to 4 or 4:30pm and i was zoning on the downers and i did not feel so good emotionally and had no mental energy... so i ate a bunch of chocolate and felt much much better...

so much for what the medical profession knows... and then i went to softball...

narfreaking day from hell!...