sometimes nothing

it could be days or even weeks sometimes when life gets so busy or i just get tired and words do not flow, or at least they don't go in the box for upload, but every now and then it is a period of silence like a sentence comes to an end period, get it?) and a solemn sadness rolls in like a seemingly never-ending tide that sucks the life out of everything and leaves nothing left but sitting and wondering if it is time to just stay there and let go... have i been alone too long?... these depressing moments do not last long but they feel like forever as they drag on endlessly in a space devoid of energy and motivation and hope and there is not much worse than hopelessness in this life as the why go on? question blocks out everything else... every day i give so much time and energy to helping others helping others helping others one and on and it stays so one sided so much of the time as no one makes it personal as no one cares in the personal space, no one hugs, no one cuddles, no one close, no one even sits near enough to touch alas, the life goes by so fast and now maybe all the chances for love, or even a close friend, have passed... seriously, what is serious (and who really cares?)...

what what what what what what what whut?... i hear the words wise people say don't think that way don't think that way stay positive and hope and pray don't think that way don't think that way when loneliness leads to dismay don't think that way don't think that way hope for tomorrow no help today don't think that way don't think that way don't think that way don't think that way what what what whut?...

and we are left with just another who cares, right?...

narf :}