not enough free time

most than anything, not enough me time... not enough writing time, which is reflective and creative and therapeutic and all sorts of other me time that is essential to my balance and peace and happiness and joy and all sorts of aspects of positivity for me so dangit, i really need to find more time for me, dangit dangit dangit... and to add emphasis, if that will help me get more me time, dammit too!... and there is a new terminator coming too, dag nabit!... yeah, there must be time for irreverence or everything is lost, or all is lost, or something like that... so there is a whole lot of timespace going on at the moment in the last week of this blog and tomorrow is coming up way too soon and there are thoughts and feelings and experiences and memories awaiting processing and recording and there we come to that simple choice once again, sleep or write, write or sleep... sleep allows for better physical health and less fatigue for all that must be done tomorrow and writing allows for much more clarity in focus once a tipping point of release is reached, but much more physical and mental fatigue... the challenge is reaching that tipping point of release that there just does not seem to be enough time to get to (or hasn't been in some time, years, even)...

does all this mean anything to anyone outside of my head?...

alas...