sleep tonight?

in the morning i will be waking (if i sleep tonight) to drive jackson to work which is over an hour round trip (or to her car if she convinces me she can drive and is fully over her bout of vertigo, which is at least forty minutes round trip) and then i dress for softball practice and do it... sso why am i not sleeping?... well, i was pondering mental illness for a while and this is the entry you should be reading, but i think what is probably keeping me awake is a sems of desperation for me-time, for attention, for validation, and for caring... like the who down in whoville, i just want to be recognized... i just want to matter to someone outside of my head... so i am here, i am here, i am here... now all i need is a norton to pass the word along to someone who cares... like tom chapin once sang, life is like that... and blogs are here :)

meanwhile, i keep getting these facebook text messages about posts that i thought i cancelled even though my account is deactivated at the moment and the text messages are kind of cryptic because i only see eight to ten words of the message... and even though i thought i cancelled (and didn't get messages for many weeks), i am getting text messages whenever one of the commentators from outrageous acts of science (caryn bonder) posts on her wall (usually some odd fact about animals or ecology)... i ought to check my facebook account to see if it's been hacked, but i just don't have time for it these days... especially when i want to continue babbling on like i am doing here now and for quite some time in this and other blogs... there's another entry already set to be uploaded after this one, so whatever it means to you, i obviously want to continue throwing these messages out on the cyber seas...

have to leave in less than two hours and the words just continue...

what's left to say?...

narf :)