Friday, May 8, 2015

another bump in the road

it is a personal bump, something between me and jackson and while i live my life striving to hide nothing, i respect the privacy of those who seek privacy so i shall not get into all of the details, but it shall be a challenging night and weekend... jackson will be away, so there will be no resolution and that, if you know anything about me, is the worst way to leave any unpleasant situation... the physical space is not restful for me and hasn't been since the construction and last october it got a lot more personally challenging to relax here cuz trust was gone and never really resolved and tonight even more and it is taking it's toll on the body... sitting here awake waiting for resolution because i do not sleep easy when waiting for a resolution... it's been a long time to not sleep well... and i've got a lot of work to do here and tomorrow and this weekend and whenever i finally motivate myself to trust again and so on and so forth and wish someone would hug me now... a long night... a long weekend... and no one to talk to about it... not even to write to... life is not fair... send in the worms...

narf...

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